Figuring out my in-between status

Yuck. Doing some review of last year once again was looking at decent visits to this blog, with Google Analytics saying had visitors from 57 countries. While also I noted my financial struggles last year were major. So am still in-between where the attention levels can draw globally have not connected to me making money.

Have puzzled for YEARS over this in-between state where at least now I believe the data, while back over a decade ago was just puzzled. And then the number was given was 125 countries for my math blog. So it was even more mysterious.

Now though realize there are not payment intermediaries of which am aware for my particular ways of drawing attention. Where talked payment intermediaries a bit with my post of an idea marketplace.

But like you go to a store, which is a payment intermediary by these ideas, where you can buy products. Or you have products at a store that people can buy. And is more rare to sell products direct to customers.

The store is in-between showing expertise in product selection--what ends up on the shelves. And in bringing in customers and providing for their needs while also facilitating them paying for things.

For services, a person trades skills and time with an employer for pay, where typically that employer is in some business position above that employee.

Have noted wryly to myself more than once when have greater reach than a company. Which is a real thing. I may NOT have figured out how to make money with my global reach but I have learned how to use for influence.

But it's just common sense, if some guy can pull attention from 50+ countries across multiple categories year after year after year, then probably I know a few things, you know?

Where is like, and what am I doing fancy? I use Blogger, and tweet a lot, but...and have an Instagram where I barely post. And some other things where am not looking to use latest whatever.

Even my open source project is over 14 years old and will be 15, this February.  So yeah I DO wonder at times how I not only keep drawing global attention but maintain the levels.

I catch myself tweaking things at times. Trying to figure out my own process.

And of course I've learned ways to leverage that attention various ways.

Just the money solution has eluded me.

So am still stuck in-between. AT least realize that the web enables the global reach and it is real. And it is impressive to draw attention from 50+ countries year after year after year. It even lets me maybe impact positively for people I think are under-promoted.

Of course am sure web will evolve to where any person who can draw attention on my scale will be able to make money some kind of way, as shows value in content. But current systems to me either are inadequate or involve folks I call money people in a way I find scary.

Meanwhile have to make a living. And now have a vehicle of opportunity, as was given one, but is also more pressure to maintain. And do NOT want to end up homeless again, and never want to need to go to a shelter again.

So what to do? Can focus on finding a company that can handle all of the above, which is what will do. While thinking more about the payment intermediaries who will one day transform the globe, as the web takes proper place in the global economy.

Just wish more of them were already here.

Is fascinating to me how I was trapped so long ago by those web stats. Was massively global at the start of my awareness of even having any kind of global position at 100+ countries and has been that way for over a decade now.

Yeah awareness from web companies giving those stats. Still rely much on Google, like most often still reference Google Analytics as is convenient.

May as well believe it--am global.

Even when I try to just walk away from it, as I can just not think about it, like to say, reality warps around me. I effect change and affect things around me just by being there. And rarely is there much negative for me, but that is not always true for others. So I have a responsibility for many reasons. Must face the best of my attention reality, and surmount what obstacles remain between me and financial stability.


James Harris

Some 2018 review

Now that 2018 is finally over can consider just a bit the big picture. Started out desperate for me and got worse as was evicted and ended up in a homeless shelter. But eventually started a course learning heating and air conditioning technology. Got a scholarship from a general, got a vehicle from Geico, and now have housing through Macon Housing Authority.

So yeah was a wild year.

And now to consider some blog stats. Where I use Google Analytics as is free and blog is set up with it. And will let me do things like get a picture over entire year. However it really gives kind of a bottom baseline.

So according to Google Analytics this blog had visits from 57 countries.

Top 5 Countries for visitors: US, France, India, Iraq and Russia

Least numbers of visitors from: New Zealand, Panama, Serbia, Singapore and Zambia

Yeah that's kind of wild to me. Can look at city visits, where says had visits from only 188 cities. And says were 34 languages. Where blog has Google Translate which I guess helps with that one.

So why no visitor numbers? Well the actual numbers of visitors are underwhelming to me, but they also give too much information, so I no longer share.

So now 2018 is finally over and have a vehicle this time around, as well as training in working on heating and air conditioning units. Was accelerated training but that is better for me anyway. And was top student, but hey, I have a degree in physics.

Where it was interesting to get the technical side, like with the refrigeration cycle, where of course I already knew by the physics. Technical is learning how things are done in actual systems versus just understanding the underlying theory.

And not unexpectedly I could blow out the tests in terms of the academics but was really proud to be top student on performance tests as well. But that was from perfection, as I like to work as hard as I can when it matters to get it right--the first time.

Ok, so now is time to focus on a JOB. Where am a guy with a degree in physics, my own open source software project used all over the world, and some blogs like this one, lots of ideas, and now some training in repairing heating and air conditioning units, along with MUCH, much more.

Isn't the United States something else? Where else but in this country could you have a story like mine? Rhetorical, I think.

Ok 2019, let's get things going. So much to do with so much expectation.


James Harris