The urge to group humans by those who invented race was not just about delusions of their own superiority, was also about an easier handle.
Like in the United States for American slaveowners, group punishment required group identification.
But is like with the label Asian as used in my country. To an American racist, if you have some people from China, some people from South Korea, North Korea and Japan in the same room? They are to THAT racist all SIMPLY Asians.
And said person may make various claims about them as a group, as if their nationalities were irrelevant. But also if they are subordinate in some way, like are employees at same company? That racist might talk of a group policy--towards Asians.
So is also a way to lower the importance of human difference. Like by claiming that frictions for historical reasons between Koreans, Chinese and Japanese are irrelevant for that person, an American racist can in effect claim that such things are tiny in comparison to a perceived greater dominance.
Does give me problems will admit, as various titles for groupings in the US have shifted finally to Black for many, or African American. But for Black folks who go visit the African continent, can be jolting have heard: In a place where your skin color does not supposedly provide any grouping at all.
Being dark skinned in Africa? Why would that be considered a race indicator?
Of course race is a social construct, and we can trace out why was constructed, but does not change continuing impacts. Like slave masters also wanted to be able to whip their slaves for punishment, but whipping an adult, never whipped? That person can go into shock and die. A solution might brutally use to prepare for the shock? -- Beat children to get them ready for the whip as adults. Was myself beaten with a leather belt by my father so brutally at 6 years old, my legs were bleeding. Slavery ended over 150 years ago. We have to face these things though.
Talk more on my blog Lost in Commentary: Facing the legacy of American slavery
So why not talk these things? I find the subject fascinating even though can be distressing. But one of the weird things about racists is the belief that they had awesome ancestors which makes them awesome too. So have noticed this insistence as if the history of American slavery somehow diminishes my ability. It does not.
Have talked some on my blog Seriously Commercial: Greek slaves would have laughed
People can have all kinds of wild ideas: especially when people wish to diminish or dominate others. But what YOU believe? Is still really up to you. I say that to also say: no excuses.
In our times the web lets truth flow freely. So you can read up on humanity, and learn how we are one species. You know, if you're actually curious, you know, about being human.
James Harris
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Friday, October 18, 2019
Monday, April 08, 2019
Letting facts rule my perspective
Had been indications before, but still was different to just look at web analytics that gave me this global picture of interest in my things. And how to process? Part of me for YEARS really was expecting like someone would appear...like had read about in so much fiction had loved.
But there was no wise human--or even an alien would have been ok told myself--teacher to arrive.
Was just me with questions and the coldness of information just presented. But of course tried to talk about to people, who I could, and finally focused on settling: was fact or fiction somehow?
Or even if was fact, was it possibly mundane anyway?
Like at first thought maybe anyone who put up web things would have visits from over one hundred countries annually, just maybe from random human curiosity.
Which is a reason to have more than one thing, so could compare across blogs and later other things. And like now I look at my Pinterest jstevh and wonder.
Have so much global, with so little explanation really.
But the anxiety that gripped me with my fear of the unknown has steadily become appropriate concerns about the known. And with over a decade now, am finally focusing solidly on facts to rule my perspective.
So many thoughts had for this post, and is already long for what managed to get out so far, just with the bit started. Should I edit down? (Editor me has arrived and is being, charitable so leaving much maybe just to remind myself how much often gets cut.) Or trust the process? I like those kinds of questions to myself that an audience may never get to witness.
When could question the facts could at times just try to forget.
For years would focus on still trying to get someplace a part of me could not quite accept was where I was at already. Certain I had to depend on recognition from others, as if the human interest already demonstrated was not enough.
But whoever you all are out there, driving those stats, have been so invisible to me. And then again, that could be comforting as well, as how was I supposed to act? (But thank you so much for being there and having that interest!!!)
Years in San Francisco allowed me so much practice. I loved karaoke to let me play at the possibility: The attention I could gain with singing just for fun. And had started quite deliberate, with my knees shaking back December 1999 when still in Georgia, USA.
Was globally known I figured from various things felt more like hints but was in San Francisco got those web stats, and objective fact from others on whom could rely, right?
And was in 2007 or 2008, and I have not been able to narrow it down for sure in my mind. Wasn't until October 2010 when I finally put up a more recent picture. And distinctly remember riding the Muni 108 bus in to SoMa and then the quick walk into the Financial District in San Francisco, like usual, to work, wondering if was being recognized.
Then laid off, denying back then had anything to do with it, and worked harder I told myself to try and figure out the web things, and make them pay. Yet actually did so much of the theoretical underpinning in the last few years. And was driven even harder last year when ended up homeless, having been evicted and then in a shelter for MONTHS.
Such a wild story where so much with the facts was so much often bizarrely to me so constant. Over 100 countries stable at least for downloads for my open source project Class Viewer where one year dropped below. I remember thinking would boost it, and made myself study my process. There was EFFORT involved and finally accepted how much effort I put into so much. And why wouldn't it be hard?
Somehow I adjusted and watched as boosted from the nineties back above 100 countries annually for downloads. And allowed myself to realize: hey, kind of cool and how exactly did I DO that?
How does any person have anything that can draw interest from human beings in over 100 countries?
Made myself ask that question, over and over again. Pressured myself to be meta. Pushed an executive function within myself to better manage it all. And with all that work am finally to the point where am better, I think, at letting facts rule my perspective.
So I tell myself. That's enough for this post, I tell myself now. Will leave in the editorial messages, and the messages to myself. How much will edit later, who knows? I'll find out as the process which have refined takes over.
And have done some editing. That editorial part of me does feel very different. Editing I think is when I more enjoy the work. While an executive part of me likes the idea of leaving so much in this post, which helps me too, down the line. Gives a sense of the work involved.
That inner executive part of me does like getting attention here and there, and I'm forcing myself to document THAT as well, but why? Of course I'm the one that is in charge regardless of which aspect of me feels like is forefront, my inner executive notes.
James Harris
But there was no wise human--or even an alien would have been ok told myself--teacher to arrive.
Was just me with questions and the coldness of information just presented. But of course tried to talk about to people, who I could, and finally focused on settling: was fact or fiction somehow?
Or even if was fact, was it possibly mundane anyway?
Like at first thought maybe anyone who put up web things would have visits from over one hundred countries annually, just maybe from random human curiosity.
Which is a reason to have more than one thing, so could compare across blogs and later other things. And like now I look at my Pinterest jstevh and wonder.
Have so much global, with so little explanation really.
But the anxiety that gripped me with my fear of the unknown has steadily become appropriate concerns about the known. And with over a decade now, am finally focusing solidly on facts to rule my perspective.
So many thoughts had for this post, and is already long for what managed to get out so far, just with the bit started. Should I edit down? (Editor me has arrived and is being, charitable so leaving much maybe just to remind myself how much often gets cut.) Or trust the process? I like those kinds of questions to myself that an audience may never get to witness.
When could question the facts could at times just try to forget.
For years would focus on still trying to get someplace a part of me could not quite accept was where I was at already. Certain I had to depend on recognition from others, as if the human interest already demonstrated was not enough.
But whoever you all are out there, driving those stats, have been so invisible to me. And then again, that could be comforting as well, as how was I supposed to act? (But thank you so much for being there and having that interest!!!)
Years in San Francisco allowed me so much practice. I loved karaoke to let me play at the possibility: The attention I could gain with singing just for fun. And had started quite deliberate, with my knees shaking back December 1999 when still in Georgia, USA.
Was globally known I figured from various things felt more like hints but was in San Francisco got those web stats, and objective fact from others on whom could rely, right?
And was in 2007 or 2008, and I have not been able to narrow it down for sure in my mind. Wasn't until October 2010 when I finally put up a more recent picture. And distinctly remember riding the Muni 108 bus in to SoMa and then the quick walk into the Financial District in San Francisco, like usual, to work, wondering if was being recognized.
Then laid off, denying back then had anything to do with it, and worked harder I told myself to try and figure out the web things, and make them pay. Yet actually did so much of the theoretical underpinning in the last few years. And was driven even harder last year when ended up homeless, having been evicted and then in a shelter for MONTHS.
Such a wild story where so much with the facts was so much often bizarrely to me so constant. Over 100 countries stable at least for downloads for my open source project Class Viewer where one year dropped below. I remember thinking would boost it, and made myself study my process. There was EFFORT involved and finally accepted how much effort I put into so much. And why wouldn't it be hard?
Somehow I adjusted and watched as boosted from the nineties back above 100 countries annually for downloads. And allowed myself to realize: hey, kind of cool and how exactly did I DO that?
How does any person have anything that can draw interest from human beings in over 100 countries?
Made myself ask that question, over and over again. Pressured myself to be meta. Pushed an executive function within myself to better manage it all. And with all that work am finally to the point where am better, I think, at letting facts rule my perspective.
So I tell myself. That's enough for this post, I tell myself now. Will leave in the editorial messages, and the messages to myself. How much will edit later, who knows? I'll find out as the process which have refined takes over.
And have done some editing. That editorial part of me does feel very different. Editing I think is when I more enjoy the work. While an executive part of me likes the idea of leaving so much in this post, which helps me too, down the line. Gives a sense of the work involved.
That inner executive part of me does like getting attention here and there, and I'm forcing myself to document THAT as well, but why? Of course I'm the one that is in charge regardless of which aspect of me feels like is forefront, my inner executive notes.
James Harris
Sunday, March 10, 2019
Being my own executive
Am sure understate how jarring it was when finally got web analytics data showing my math blog was pulling visitors from 100 plus countries. At first thought certain things would quickly happen and when they didn't, puzzled if data was correct. And later began wondering more about what to present.
Like would tell myself: getting this global attention so maybe have a global responsibility? Shouldn't I put up things that are profound?
Which kind of froze me to some extent for about three years until the shrug arrived. So lots of times, am like, shrug--will just do SOMETHING and not worry how profound it maybe is.
But also at some point a part of me was watching this creative me just throwing up content at will, and without a plan really. Just kind of vague had this idea to somehow build an audience, you know?
And an executive part of me one day was like, enough. And yanked me off the web for a bit.
So then this executive aspect started managing me, and is kind of weird. But what else could I do? Sure yeah is still me, but am in control of everything.
But it also helped me look at things elsewhere differently. Before would concentrate on artists and content, but then started focusing on figuring out executive decisions. And eventually was even critiquing some of them, thinking to myself, would not have let that go out THAT way.
So now usually operate with three aspects in general: a creative side, the writer; an editor side; and an executive side, who manages everything.
But of course other times there are other aspects like a researcher, or whatever is necessary, but the primaries are there for EVERYTHING that goes public. Like this post, where the executive me gets center stage. So it reads differently. My editor side will get it next, while my creative side takes a break. And soon enough you will get it, when I post.
The executive me though makes that decision--to post.
James Harris
Like would tell myself: getting this global attention so maybe have a global responsibility? Shouldn't I put up things that are profound?
Which kind of froze me to some extent for about three years until the shrug arrived. So lots of times, am like, shrug--will just do SOMETHING and not worry how profound it maybe is.
But also at some point a part of me was watching this creative me just throwing up content at will, and without a plan really. Just kind of vague had this idea to somehow build an audience, you know?
And an executive part of me one day was like, enough. And yanked me off the web for a bit.
So then this executive aspect started managing me, and is kind of weird. But what else could I do? Sure yeah is still me, but am in control of everything.
But it also helped me look at things elsewhere differently. Before would concentrate on artists and content, but then started focusing on figuring out executive decisions. And eventually was even critiquing some of them, thinking to myself, would not have let that go out THAT way.
So now usually operate with three aspects in general: a creative side, the writer; an editor side; and an executive side, who manages everything.
But of course other times there are other aspects like a researcher, or whatever is necessary, but the primaries are there for EVERYTHING that goes public. Like this post, where the executive me gets center stage. So it reads differently. My editor side will get it next, while my creative side takes a break. And soon enough you will get it, when I post.
The executive me though makes that decision--to post.
James Harris
Sunday, March 03, 2019
Some challenges of global attention reality
Got a HUGE reprieve from full brunt of shift to a global attention reality back in 1996. I had a math paper I thought solved a math problem couple of thousand years old, about packing of spheres. Weird to realize was lucky in that the paper was rejected by an editor of a journal put out by the American Mathematical Society as too simple.
Back then was 26, and had only started doing my own admittedly amateur math research April 15, 1995, as decided to mark the date. Though am suspicious that I might have defaulted later to the tax day here in the US. Am sure though about the month.
Didn't argue with the editor, but moved on to other things including a lot of embarrassing and futile efforts at proving what is commonly called Fermat's Last Theorem. Which worked out for me as in December 1999 invented one of my most powerful math tools, though wasn't certain had done it at the time.
At its simplest what I put down is same as: x+y+vz = x+y+vz
But use it functionally as x+y+vz = 0(mod x+y+vz). Where "mod" just means modular. So like 1 pm is mod 12 hours. While military time is 1300. So you can say: 13 mod 24 is 1 mod 12. So we use modular ALL THE TIME with time. Just wanting to be sure doesn't seem too distant, just a little simple math.
But what I discovered can do algebra for you. Which is really cool. Is also really freaky when you realize the math is doing math, as is perfect, and can manipulate vastly complex expressions.
Future mathematicians will probably no longer do algebra the way it has been done up until our times, as why bother, when the math does algebra better?
But also I figured out my own way to count prime numbers in August 2002, which yeah, made me global at THAT point. But still had a reprieve in that SOME math people argued with me. And SOME tried to convince me wasn't a big deal. And there was no official recognition which continues to this day.
And I've wracked up quite a few major mathematical results, and of course got wise to the behavior.
Am NOT a mathematician. And my mathematical discoveries disrupt vast areas of what people thought was established mathematics, and simplifies HUGE chunks of it. Oh yeah and corrects the foundations of all of it. As I got a paper published showing how to appear to prove one thing under accepted math rules, which you could disprove with an argument using accepted math rules. Contradiction!!!
Thankfully could explain and fix the underlying problem.
Thanks to the web not only went global as a result of my math discovery, but eventually could check objective evidence. And have discussed much over the years. Like thanks to Google Analytics, found out my math blog was pulling interest from 125 countries/territories is how they put it, on an annual basis. Which was at least for a bit. That was back 2007 or 2008, am not sure which. Later I changed the name of the blog, kind of curious. And that dropped precipitously. But last year was back up a bit to 80 plus countries.
Even this blog consistently pulls attention from 50 plus countries annually and that's just what Google Analytics reports, which is more of a baseline. Plenty of people may not show up, like if they opt out of various things.
Years ago when was still in San Francisco, noticed my behavior was puzzling to me. Was convinced back then that I needed official recognition of my math discoveries for certain things to happen. And became aware of the global web attention various ways, but had no frame of reference to appreciate its full significance.
But I was having problems I had associated with major celebrities in terms of my behavior, and dealing with at times, crushing levels of anxiety. At one point was in a townhouse by myself, with a case of beer and a bottle of vodka, telling myself didn't have a problem. And at times was curled up on the floor in a fetal position as somehow felt better as dealt with...whatever it was. Talking it doesn't help. Am much better now.
Web attention is actually simply attention. Unlike some celebrity who can look say, at a television show or a movie or some other thing to get a handle on the 'why' of attention, I usually have a more vague (but recently homeless veteran status got me on television for a bit). And mine tends to be CONSTANT. I can witness brushes of celebrity come and go, with a certain detachment. But my basic attention reality is global by default with a constancy I marvel over as the years go by.
And it is 24 hours a day potential, 365 days a year. And I can check at any time.
Like now before this post goes live and therefore global, just went to look at Blogger stats. Those are different from Google Analytics but not as useful for annual. Here they tell me weekly as default.
In the last week according to Blogger stats this blog had visits from: Belgium, US, Israel, Ukraine, Canada, Unknown region, France, Moldova, and Vietnam
So yeah at least some from unknown countries. How many visits? I don't tell as tells too much information but let's just say, NOT an impressive number. Which for a long time felt like a contradiction which gave me yet another reprieve.
Why is it a reprieve?
You tell yourself you're one of the most famous people in the world with a global attention reality that means you're one of the most influential as well. And you consider how you react to global events where your advice matters, and you look at consequences where you wonder at times about accountability. And you try to maintain an even keel.
Or it just seems surreal. And you can ask yourself: is it even real?
Yeah I rhymed a lot there. Will leave it that way. For a long time I've been a major influence on world events, doing my best as tried to learn, and often learning after that I could do something.
And now most of the anxiety things are gone. No more curling up on the floor in the fetal position, and I don't even drink alcohol any more. And today will monitor our world in various ways, and if necessary, will as I've done so many times before, act for the protection of humanity, as best I can.
(Yeah sounds very wacky. Part of me wishes wasn't true. But also is like, if not me, who? Yeah that rhymes, um, also.)
Have been a portal to our world of incredible tools and some of them are some of the most advanced thinking tools humanity has ever had. But they don't have to help us. They can help us destroy each other and ourselves as well.
We will do ok though. I have faith in many of YOU, and am working on myself. Figure will always be a work in progress.
So yeah challenges? Got those. Am a major discoverer for the 21st century. We do things different now.
James Harris
Back then was 26, and had only started doing my own admittedly amateur math research April 15, 1995, as decided to mark the date. Though am suspicious that I might have defaulted later to the tax day here in the US. Am sure though about the month.
Didn't argue with the editor, but moved on to other things including a lot of embarrassing and futile efforts at proving what is commonly called Fermat's Last Theorem. Which worked out for me as in December 1999 invented one of my most powerful math tools, though wasn't certain had done it at the time.
At its simplest what I put down is same as: x+y+vz = x+y+vz
But use it functionally as x+y+vz = 0(mod x+y+vz). Where "mod" just means modular. So like 1 pm is mod 12 hours. While military time is 1300. So you can say: 13 mod 24 is 1 mod 12. So we use modular ALL THE TIME with time. Just wanting to be sure doesn't seem too distant, just a little simple math.
But what I discovered can do algebra for you. Which is really cool. Is also really freaky when you realize the math is doing math, as is perfect, and can manipulate vastly complex expressions.
Future mathematicians will probably no longer do algebra the way it has been done up until our times, as why bother, when the math does algebra better?
But also I figured out my own way to count prime numbers in August 2002, which yeah, made me global at THAT point. But still had a reprieve in that SOME math people argued with me. And SOME tried to convince me wasn't a big deal. And there was no official recognition which continues to this day.
And I've wracked up quite a few major mathematical results, and of course got wise to the behavior.
Am NOT a mathematician. And my mathematical discoveries disrupt vast areas of what people thought was established mathematics, and simplifies HUGE chunks of it. Oh yeah and corrects the foundations of all of it. As I got a paper published showing how to appear to prove one thing under accepted math rules, which you could disprove with an argument using accepted math rules. Contradiction!!!
Thankfully could explain and fix the underlying problem.
Thanks to the web not only went global as a result of my math discovery, but eventually could check objective evidence. And have discussed much over the years. Like thanks to Google Analytics, found out my math blog was pulling interest from 125 countries/territories is how they put it, on an annual basis. Which was at least for a bit. That was back 2007 or 2008, am not sure which. Later I changed the name of the blog, kind of curious. And that dropped precipitously. But last year was back up a bit to 80 plus countries.
Even this blog consistently pulls attention from 50 plus countries annually and that's just what Google Analytics reports, which is more of a baseline. Plenty of people may not show up, like if they opt out of various things.
Years ago when was still in San Francisco, noticed my behavior was puzzling to me. Was convinced back then that I needed official recognition of my math discoveries for certain things to happen. And became aware of the global web attention various ways, but had no frame of reference to appreciate its full significance.
But I was having problems I had associated with major celebrities in terms of my behavior, and dealing with at times, crushing levels of anxiety. At one point was in a townhouse by myself, with a case of beer and a bottle of vodka, telling myself didn't have a problem. And at times was curled up on the floor in a fetal position as somehow felt better as dealt with...whatever it was. Talking it doesn't help. Am much better now.
Web attention is actually simply attention. Unlike some celebrity who can look say, at a television show or a movie or some other thing to get a handle on the 'why' of attention, I usually have a more vague (but recently homeless veteran status got me on television for a bit). And mine tends to be CONSTANT. I can witness brushes of celebrity come and go, with a certain detachment. But my basic attention reality is global by default with a constancy I marvel over as the years go by.
And it is 24 hours a day potential, 365 days a year. And I can check at any time.
Like now before this post goes live and therefore global, just went to look at Blogger stats. Those are different from Google Analytics but not as useful for annual. Here they tell me weekly as default.
In the last week according to Blogger stats this blog had visits from: Belgium, US, Israel, Ukraine, Canada, Unknown region, France, Moldova, and Vietnam
So yeah at least some from unknown countries. How many visits? I don't tell as tells too much information but let's just say, NOT an impressive number. Which for a long time felt like a contradiction which gave me yet another reprieve.
Why is it a reprieve?
You tell yourself you're one of the most famous people in the world with a global attention reality that means you're one of the most influential as well. And you consider how you react to global events where your advice matters, and you look at consequences where you wonder at times about accountability. And you try to maintain an even keel.
Or it just seems surreal. And you can ask yourself: is it even real?
Yeah I rhymed a lot there. Will leave it that way. For a long time I've been a major influence on world events, doing my best as tried to learn, and often learning after that I could do something.
And now most of the anxiety things are gone. No more curling up on the floor in the fetal position, and I don't even drink alcohol any more. And today will monitor our world in various ways, and if necessary, will as I've done so many times before, act for the protection of humanity, as best I can.
(Yeah sounds very wacky. Part of me wishes wasn't true. But also is like, if not me, who? Yeah that rhymes, um, also.)
Have been a portal to our world of incredible tools and some of them are some of the most advanced thinking tools humanity has ever had. But they don't have to help us. They can help us destroy each other and ourselves as well.
We will do ok though. I have faith in many of YOU, and am working on myself. Figure will always be a work in progress.
So yeah challenges? Got those. Am a major discoverer for the 21st century. We do things different now.
James Harris
Monday, February 04, 2019
When opportunity requires all you have
Have made plenty of efforts to explain myself but keep feeling like more could be added for things to make sense. Like have mentioned had major math discoveries, but importantly back in 2004 a paper of mine finally went live. That math paper demonstrated how to create a perfect looking mathematical argument by ALL the established rules--that nonetheless had an incorrect conclusion.
So yeah, by the rules accepted by mathematicians--the paper is perfect. But you can use a separate mathematical argument to prove that the conclusion is incorrect.
Yeah, really cool, huh? I thought so, and realized that with that demonstration my place in human history was SET in a really big way. Which it is. And it DOES relate to questions about mathematical consistency where Kurt Gödel had famous work in that area. And will admit did have some concerns that I might have sunk human mathematics, which were quickly dispelled. For people who wish more who have mathematical background talk on my blog Some Math which also links to my paper.
The copy is available thanks to a European agency (thank God for those Europeans) as the math journal that originally published it, keeled over and died, after one more edition, after the chief editor deleted my paper out, falsely claiming it was withdrawn. I did NOT withdraw it. Why would I?
So yeah clearly mathematicians did not react the way I expected as we are now at 15 years later, and the paper is still there. It STILL demonstrates a flaw and to my knowledge that flaw has still not been officially addressed. But now maybe it makes more sense how I got attention from 100+ countries where initially that was with math.
But I pioneered advanced problem solving tools, which I like to label as a process of abstract reductionism.
And I kept going. Made more math discoveries but started studying other things so functionally defined science. And more recently functionally defined entertainment, and did other problem solving things. Like have analyzed the global monetary system, and others things.
Oh so was it a big deal for me for mathematicians to not officially recognize my discovery? Well it upset me. I expected their help!!! And when was clear they wouldn't help got very upset. But also was curious and realized had a unique opportunity.
So yeah I plugged the hole in the foundations of established mathematics.
Refined my mathematical tools and made some cool major discoveries--without concern of competition.
Though reality is WAS concerned for years until as the years went by fully accepted was in a cool cruise mode--all by myself.
From my perspective as a major discoverer--it was as good as it gets. No shared credit for anything. NO having to make stupid speeches or show up in a suit for some academic whatever. NO reason to be an academic at all. And freedom to range without question.
But also was very stressful. My reality often felt surreal. My advanced thinking tools could give me massive influence hard to explain. And I still had to work for a living. Which got increasingly harder as have talked though things are intriguingly working better in that regard now.
But yeah by ignoring a MASSIVE flaw that showed their math was inconsistent, and needed a fix, those folks claiming to be mathematicians? To me simply proved they were not functionally. And so they were of no use to me anyway. I began distancing myself from them and like to emphasize am NOT a mathematician myself.
Does the world really care? I debate with myself. The math I use is very easy, so there is no doubt of anything I stated here. The paper is still available so mathematicians can in AWE check it at will. And I have massive influence with a global reach of 100+ countries which apparently is not going anywhere.
For a long time I thought I needed the mathematical community. Eventually realized that was silly.
I could build a better one.
And do much else. Am a major discoverer for the 21st century. Who has been given free reign to wing it often and put a unique spin on plenty of things. And I try not to take myself too seriously. Even though routinely have found myself protecting the world, which at times has gotten weird.
But then again, am just glad have been able. God knows why some person like myself gets the kind of authority I have, where have defined authority on my Seriously Commercial blog.
Over the last 15 years plus often have looked at myself and noted to myself--am not impressed. Often I wonder, how do I even know how to do these things, really?
Am a person though willing to seize opportunity though what was in front of me has taken all I have. And consider for me global attention is just a thing. And is NOT going anywhere.
Now though, more and more am like, is cool.
James Harris
So yeah, by the rules accepted by mathematicians--the paper is perfect. But you can use a separate mathematical argument to prove that the conclusion is incorrect.
Yeah, really cool, huh? I thought so, and realized that with that demonstration my place in human history was SET in a really big way. Which it is. And it DOES relate to questions about mathematical consistency where Kurt Gödel had famous work in that area. And will admit did have some concerns that I might have sunk human mathematics, which were quickly dispelled. For people who wish more who have mathematical background talk on my blog Some Math which also links to my paper.
The copy is available thanks to a European agency (thank God for those Europeans) as the math journal that originally published it, keeled over and died, after one more edition, after the chief editor deleted my paper out, falsely claiming it was withdrawn. I did NOT withdraw it. Why would I?
So yeah clearly mathematicians did not react the way I expected as we are now at 15 years later, and the paper is still there. It STILL demonstrates a flaw and to my knowledge that flaw has still not been officially addressed. But now maybe it makes more sense how I got attention from 100+ countries where initially that was with math.
But I pioneered advanced problem solving tools, which I like to label as a process of abstract reductionism.
And I kept going. Made more math discoveries but started studying other things so functionally defined science. And more recently functionally defined entertainment, and did other problem solving things. Like have analyzed the global monetary system, and others things.
Oh so was it a big deal for me for mathematicians to not officially recognize my discovery? Well it upset me. I expected their help!!! And when was clear they wouldn't help got very upset. But also was curious and realized had a unique opportunity.
So yeah I plugged the hole in the foundations of established mathematics.
Refined my mathematical tools and made some cool major discoveries--without concern of competition.
Though reality is WAS concerned for years until as the years went by fully accepted was in a cool cruise mode--all by myself.
From my perspective as a major discoverer--it was as good as it gets. No shared credit for anything. NO having to make stupid speeches or show up in a suit for some academic whatever. NO reason to be an academic at all. And freedom to range without question.
But also was very stressful. My reality often felt surreal. My advanced thinking tools could give me massive influence hard to explain. And I still had to work for a living. Which got increasingly harder as have talked though things are intriguingly working better in that regard now.
But yeah by ignoring a MASSIVE flaw that showed their math was inconsistent, and needed a fix, those folks claiming to be mathematicians? To me simply proved they were not functionally. And so they were of no use to me anyway. I began distancing myself from them and like to emphasize am NOT a mathematician myself.
Does the world really care? I debate with myself. The math I use is very easy, so there is no doubt of anything I stated here. The paper is still available so mathematicians can in AWE check it at will. And I have massive influence with a global reach of 100+ countries which apparently is not going anywhere.
For a long time I thought I needed the mathematical community. Eventually realized that was silly.
I could build a better one.
And do much else. Am a major discoverer for the 21st century. Who has been given free reign to wing it often and put a unique spin on plenty of things. And I try not to take myself too seriously. Even though routinely have found myself protecting the world, which at times has gotten weird.
But then again, am just glad have been able. God knows why some person like myself gets the kind of authority I have, where have defined authority on my Seriously Commercial blog.
Over the last 15 years plus often have looked at myself and noted to myself--am not impressed. Often I wonder, how do I even know how to do these things, really?
Am a person though willing to seize opportunity though what was in front of me has taken all I have. And consider for me global attention is just a thing. And is NOT going anywhere.
Now though, more and more am like, is cool.
James Harris
Wednesday, January 02, 2019
Some 2018 review
Now that 2018 is finally over can consider just a bit the big picture. Started out desperate for me and got worse as was evicted and ended up in a homeless shelter. But eventually started a course learning heating and air conditioning technology. Got a scholarship from a general, got a vehicle from Geico, and now have housing through Macon Housing Authority.
So yeah was a wild year.
And now to consider some blog stats. Where I use Google Analytics as is free and blog is set up with it. And will let me do things like get a picture over entire year. However it really gives kind of a bottom baseline.
So according to Google Analytics this blog had visits from 57 countries.
Top 5 Countries for visitors: US, France, India, Iraq and Russia
Least numbers of visitors from: New Zealand, Panama, Serbia, Singapore and Zambia
Yeah that's kind of wild to me. Can look at city visits, where says had visits from only 188 cities. And says were 34 languages. Where blog has Google Translate which I guess helps with that one.
So why no visitor numbers? Well the actual numbers of visitors are underwhelming to me, but they also give too much information, so I no longer share.
So now 2018 is finally over and have a vehicle this time around, as well as training in working on heating and air conditioning units. Was accelerated training but that is better for me anyway. And was top student, but hey, I have a degree in physics.
Where it was interesting to get the technical side, like with the refrigeration cycle, where of course I already knew by the physics. Technical is learning how things are done in actual systems versus just understanding the underlying theory.
And not unexpectedly I could blow out the tests in terms of the academics but was really proud to be top student on performance tests as well. But that was from perfection, as I like to work as hard as I can when it matters to get it right--the first time.
Ok, so now is time to focus on a JOB. Where am a guy with a degree in physics, my own open source software project used all over the world, and some blogs like this one, lots of ideas, and now some training in repairing heating and air conditioning units, along with MUCH, much more.
Isn't the United States something else? Where else but in this country could you have a story like mine? Rhetorical, I think.
Ok 2019, let's get things going. So much to do with so much expectation.
James Harris
So yeah was a wild year.
And now to consider some blog stats. Where I use Google Analytics as is free and blog is set up with it. And will let me do things like get a picture over entire year. However it really gives kind of a bottom baseline.
So according to Google Analytics this blog had visits from 57 countries.
Top 5 Countries for visitors: US, France, India, Iraq and Russia
Least numbers of visitors from: New Zealand, Panama, Serbia, Singapore and Zambia
Yeah that's kind of wild to me. Can look at city visits, where says had visits from only 188 cities. And says were 34 languages. Where blog has Google Translate which I guess helps with that one.
So why no visitor numbers? Well the actual numbers of visitors are underwhelming to me, but they also give too much information, so I no longer share.
So now 2018 is finally over and have a vehicle this time around, as well as training in working on heating and air conditioning units. Was accelerated training but that is better for me anyway. And was top student, but hey, I have a degree in physics.
Where it was interesting to get the technical side, like with the refrigeration cycle, where of course I already knew by the physics. Technical is learning how things are done in actual systems versus just understanding the underlying theory.
And not unexpectedly I could blow out the tests in terms of the academics but was really proud to be top student on performance tests as well. But that was from perfection, as I like to work as hard as I can when it matters to get it right--the first time.
Ok, so now is time to focus on a JOB. Where am a guy with a degree in physics, my own open source software project used all over the world, and some blogs like this one, lots of ideas, and now some training in repairing heating and air conditioning units, along with MUCH, much more.
Isn't the United States something else? Where else but in this country could you have a story like mine? Rhetorical, I think.
Ok 2019, let's get things going. So much to do with so much expectation.
James Harris
Thursday, December 27, 2018
When success is a moving target
Am not certain when first got press though suspect was when was 9, and won the Spelling Bee at my school. Which was cool. Was actually competing with my older brother and was so excited to win, but then next thing you know, whoosh!!! These other things and failed at the regional competition which was the next level with an easy word for me to spell. Pressure got to me. Have thought about that for decades.
Is a pattern have wondered over where success rapidly propels me to another level, and then there find things muddled, and am finally ready to end that cycle.
Sure most of my life things have mostly worked out ok, though lately has been so much more of a struggle. But for quite some time, worked out ok. Like back then would keep ending up in the local paper, as my hometown of Tifton just had one, more than once as the years went by where am not sure how many times.
Last big one though was when was 17 and had highest SAT of my graduating high school class. That was my first press interview--with my Mom, am thinking yeah was first interview I think. And would go on to Vanderbilt University on a full academic scholarship. And have reminisced about much before but now am considering recent things.
Like studied to begin a new career in heating and air conditioning and did well there, which was great as had been in a shelter for MONTHS wondering what to do to get back on my feet. Well things really rolled along as ended up getting a scholarship, and then got a car and housing voucher, which meant ended up on local news. Here is a link to an article on local news 13WMAZ. And yeah I totally went to the public library like the news article says. (Please support your local public library.)
Where happened back in November and yeah talked on my other social media and one of my blogs where linked, which means this blog can take its time while I process. Is a good reason to have a bunch of social media, so can get important information out immediately but still follow up later without it seeming like old news. Is fresh here.
Oh yeah, so what impact, like on social media? Um, well on my social media was like it didn't happen, except for one. So was on television across I think all the major networks in central Georgia, USA, with local news. Which included commercials. And my social media public numbers did NOT MOVE from what I noticed.
But web analytics for my Pinterest jstevh actually apparently reacted. But I learned not to talk those numbers. Which is too vague even for me reading later as am re-reading and editing, so...saw a bump in the 45-54 demographic as well as an increase in male percentage. Bump was about a solid 1 percent. Also my global numbers shifted more to the US by around 1 percent. Will admit less than one third of my audience is from the US. That shifted closer to one third, by a bit.
Which is enough, where am thinking should not mess things up. Oh wait, also saw a bump in people interested in men's fashion and vehicles. So guess my suit looked ok, and of course main thing was getting a vehicle gifted to me.
So looks to me like males in the US in my age group, interested in suits and cars gave a bit of a bump there.
And it's like social media can be very, well, weird. But I should note that information here, and maybe did not give too much which would start messing up the numbers. Have done that before and didn't care but now am more like, I should care.
My social media DOES react to me talking over it, but usually not well. I have puzzled about why.
So yeah now have finally been on television where before had print things. And with that feeling of positive pressure better appreciate how I need to roll with it more. Am shifting my attitude this time and this blog is helping me.
Oh yeah, so updates from a post where talked my lack of press where I actually interviewed myself. And it is telling that a nice story I think about me getting a car and housing voucher created that burst! While so much else does not. Is cool. So yeah now have had more local press and have decided to shift from making a sense of success be such a moving target for me.
Should accept each success in its space and simply keep always looking for--more.
Oh for those wondering how does impact all the other? Doesn't really. Still am a meta innovator with a lot of major discovery where apparently there are relevant people who should, who would rather not talk about it.
But who cares. I have the web.
James Harris
Is a pattern have wondered over where success rapidly propels me to another level, and then there find things muddled, and am finally ready to end that cycle.
Sure most of my life things have mostly worked out ok, though lately has been so much more of a struggle. But for quite some time, worked out ok. Like back then would keep ending up in the local paper, as my hometown of Tifton just had one, more than once as the years went by where am not sure how many times.
Last big one though was when was 17 and had highest SAT of my graduating high school class. That was my first press interview--with my Mom, am thinking yeah was first interview I think. And would go on to Vanderbilt University on a full academic scholarship. And have reminisced about much before but now am considering recent things.
Like studied to begin a new career in heating and air conditioning and did well there, which was great as had been in a shelter for MONTHS wondering what to do to get back on my feet. Well things really rolled along as ended up getting a scholarship, and then got a car and housing voucher, which meant ended up on local news. Here is a link to an article on local news 13WMAZ. And yeah I totally went to the public library like the news article says. (Please support your local public library.)
Where happened back in November and yeah talked on my other social media and one of my blogs where linked, which means this blog can take its time while I process. Is a good reason to have a bunch of social media, so can get important information out immediately but still follow up later without it seeming like old news. Is fresh here.
Oh yeah, so what impact, like on social media? Um, well on my social media was like it didn't happen, except for one. So was on television across I think all the major networks in central Georgia, USA, with local news. Which included commercials. And my social media public numbers did NOT MOVE from what I noticed.
But web analytics for my Pinterest jstevh actually apparently reacted. But I learned not to talk those numbers. Which is too vague even for me reading later as am re-reading and editing, so...saw a bump in the 45-54 demographic as well as an increase in male percentage. Bump was about a solid 1 percent. Also my global numbers shifted more to the US by around 1 percent. Will admit less than one third of my audience is from the US. That shifted closer to one third, by a bit.
Which is enough, where am thinking should not mess things up. Oh wait, also saw a bump in people interested in men's fashion and vehicles. So guess my suit looked ok, and of course main thing was getting a vehicle gifted to me.
So looks to me like males in the US in my age group, interested in suits and cars gave a bit of a bump there.
And it's like social media can be very, well, weird. But I should note that information here, and maybe did not give too much which would start messing up the numbers. Have done that before and didn't care but now am more like, I should care.
My social media DOES react to me talking over it, but usually not well. I have puzzled about why.
So yeah now have finally been on television where before had print things. And with that feeling of positive pressure better appreciate how I need to roll with it more. Am shifting my attitude this time and this blog is helping me.
Oh yeah, so updates from a post where talked my lack of press where I actually interviewed myself. And it is telling that a nice story I think about me getting a car and housing voucher created that burst! While so much else does not. Is cool. So yeah now have had more local press and have decided to shift from making a sense of success be such a moving target for me.
Should accept each success in its space and simply keep always looking for--more.
Oh for those wondering how does impact all the other? Doesn't really. Still am a meta innovator with a lot of major discovery where apparently there are relevant people who should, who would rather not talk about it.
But who cares. I have the web.
James Harris
Thursday, July 26, 2018
My constant web
Part of me has kept wanting some kind of validation, like you go somewhere and take a test! Then you get a test score. But is like another part of me while thinking of this post was like, you mean like learning people all over the world are interested in my ideas?
But yeah have had THAT for years now where didn't feel real, and got tired of saying surreal. And kept telling myself, but should THIS happen then? Or THAT happen then? Those things aren't happening so maybe isn't real, right?
Then finally realized had vague ideas and from where? Why should I have ever known before anyway?
Then that shock to realize I do know now though. I know the reality. Have lived it.
My constant web reality is the way it works, where web lets us determine things were harder to so determine in the past, even though yeah, it does make sense when you think about it. The chatter of celebrity is just about talk. Giving people useful tools? Is on the constant.
I like Euclid as an example. No debates with myself about Euclid. While so recognized to many as a name about something pushed on them in school. He was some guy who did some things and that still matters thousands of years later.
The attention tells. People may not. Certain kinds of chatter may not be there.
Web enables us to check things.
But also yeah, I do get a HUGE amount of validation really from people who must have been sharing things of mine, but is so hidden. Don't like to talk it much. But years ago at times would go looking. Would desperately try to find something, somewhere linking to my blogs or whatever. Never could find. I go by reports from Google. There is so much weird.
(Makes sense though I realized, as linking information is what search engines use! Am not surprised they don't give me direct information there. Could allow me to reverse engineer their entire algorithms for instance. Not that I would, but they actually should only share so much data. Also there are privacy concerns am sure. So figured should note some pertinent reasons.)
Or yeah, I can just do web searches where something of mine ranks highly. And then can wonder, and wonder and wonder.
But is the influence real? Yeah. I've checked. From me liking something to not liking it, can just check how if I talk it that shifts things around planet Earth. And when I check and can't believe, I check again, and again, and again. Then I re-check some more. Which is kind of thing can take over a decade.
Was going to title this post my patient web, but mean patience. Web has been constant though, and patient as well, in terms of people who are mysteries to me, who are out there interested in my ideas and I guess, maybe sometimes in me.
Where will that validation come from if not here now? Maybe was never about that really.
James Harris
But yeah have had THAT for years now where didn't feel real, and got tired of saying surreal. And kept telling myself, but should THIS happen then? Or THAT happen then? Those things aren't happening so maybe isn't real, right?
Then finally realized had vague ideas and from where? Why should I have ever known before anyway?
Then that shock to realize I do know now though. I know the reality. Have lived it.
My constant web reality is the way it works, where web lets us determine things were harder to so determine in the past, even though yeah, it does make sense when you think about it. The chatter of celebrity is just about talk. Giving people useful tools? Is on the constant.
I like Euclid as an example. No debates with myself about Euclid. While so recognized to many as a name about something pushed on them in school. He was some guy who did some things and that still matters thousands of years later.
The attention tells. People may not. Certain kinds of chatter may not be there.
Web enables us to check things.
But also yeah, I do get a HUGE amount of validation really from people who must have been sharing things of mine, but is so hidden. Don't like to talk it much. But years ago at times would go looking. Would desperately try to find something, somewhere linking to my blogs or whatever. Never could find. I go by reports from Google. There is so much weird.
(Makes sense though I realized, as linking information is what search engines use! Am not surprised they don't give me direct information there. Could allow me to reverse engineer their entire algorithms for instance. Not that I would, but they actually should only share so much data. Also there are privacy concerns am sure. So figured should note some pertinent reasons.)
Or yeah, I can just do web searches where something of mine ranks highly. And then can wonder, and wonder and wonder.
But is the influence real? Yeah. I've checked. From me liking something to not liking it, can just check how if I talk it that shifts things around planet Earth. And when I check and can't believe, I check again, and again, and again. Then I re-check some more. Which is kind of thing can take over a decade.
Was going to title this post my patient web, but mean patience. Web has been constant though, and patient as well, in terms of people who are mysteries to me, who are out there interested in my ideas and I guess, maybe sometimes in me.
Where will that validation come from if not here now? Maybe was never about that really.
James Harris
Saturday, July 14, 2018
Explaining jstevh handle
Am in my late forties and have reached a point of appreciation for how the web can make you feel like you are back in school, struggling to learn. And have used this blog to talk much problem solving of me trying to figure things out. But also am lucky in that there were notions that occurred to me early that I feel now were great.
Like decided to build a handle from my name and back then was going to be part of branding as that was en vogue. But now is more practically a way for ME and others to keep up with things. Where primarily is good for social media.
And made handle jstevh from my name: James STEVen Harris
So I pronounce like: Jay-Steve-H
So why the emphasis on my middle-name? Well here is a post that explains how I grew up called by my middle-name. Which I always think of as very much a Georgia-thing. But I guess actually happens lots of places. Though am confident is a known Southern kind of thing along with nicknames, like Billy-Bob.
But now most people call me James, which is kind of interesting. And yeah, a few people call me Jim.
Except back home, and oddly enough with some co-workers who knew me as Steve in San Francisco, but I talk all that in the post.
Oh yeah, so turns out worked out with the web, and am glad started putting that handle on a lot of my social media.
So yeah, there is a method there, and am glad had that good idea early, versus so much had to learn and STILL am learning. The web is still in flux, changing rapidly and ADVANCING in so many ways. Is one of the coolest periods in human history, ever, am sure.
We get to be part of the evolution of one of the greatest arenas in human thought and communication.
James Harris
Like decided to build a handle from my name and back then was going to be part of branding as that was en vogue. But now is more practically a way for ME and others to keep up with things. Where primarily is good for social media.
And made handle jstevh from my name: James STEVen Harris
So I pronounce like: Jay-Steve-H
So why the emphasis on my middle-name? Well here is a post that explains how I grew up called by my middle-name. Which I always think of as very much a Georgia-thing. But I guess actually happens lots of places. Though am confident is a known Southern kind of thing along with nicknames, like Billy-Bob.
But now most people call me James, which is kind of interesting. And yeah, a few people call me Jim.
Except back home, and oddly enough with some co-workers who knew me as Steve in San Francisco, but I talk all that in the post.
Oh yeah, so turns out worked out with the web, and am glad started putting that handle on a lot of my social media.
So yeah, there is a method there, and am glad had that good idea early, versus so much had to learn and STILL am learning. The web is still in flux, changing rapidly and ADVANCING in so many ways. Is one of the coolest periods in human history, ever, am sure.
We get to be part of the evolution of one of the greatest arenas in human thought and communication.
James Harris
Friday, June 22, 2018
Pure attention reality and measuring impact
Readily admit did not react well when finally got objective evidence of a decent audience response to some of my ideas. Which is an interesting way to put it. Another way to put it is: struggled with handling properly global interest across several areas from a coding effort with an open source project to my math ideas and beyond.
This blog was made by me over a decade ago to try to get a handle on the beyond would think, from the title. Seems lately to be where I try to process things. And for over a decade there have been people out there keeping up with my content and apparently linking to it, and finally got more thankful. You're all kind of the unsung heroes of my story? Yeah, those of you who fit that description are. I DO focus so much on myself. But for so many years it all just seemed so strange.
For so many years have wondered what is real and how to know. That can really make life a struggle because you still have to make decisions regardless, on the daily.
So much has been and still is a mystery to me. And yeah, mystery matters but I mean that to be about not showing too much to your audience. Some people like to peer behind the curtain, but more just want the performance.
Objective reality here though is telling: have maintained global interest by objective measures from 100+ countries, where THAT number comes from downloads of my open source project for over a decade.
The blogs like here, except for Lost in Commentary, trend to 50+ countries where am relying on third party sources with much from Google. Like I use Google Analytics for country counts as can look at on a yearly basis and even compare between years. I also rely on Blogger stats to some extent, but they are less extensive, for some reason. What's up with that Blogger?
And is very mysterious to me who you all are--out there, all over the world.
Maybe I should work on that, huh? Will consider. There are HUGE positives to me with how things have gone. And have talked here much about the web benefit of being in control, yourself. But the big negative is: then how do you make money? Which to me seems kind of pathetic. Never thought money-making focus would end up driving so much. But also is forcing me to settle things.
We can get a pure attention reality where you share your thoughts and people can be interested, or not. Without so many intermediaries who could too often in the past simply be gatekeepers, who could block people just based on their moods or discretions.
In our times we can know just how terribly that worked as SO many people who would never have done well in the old systems, are getting global now. Guess can count myself as one? Guess I should.
So yeah, I need to work on the mystery. Who are YOU who may be reading now? For those who have supported me through the years, amid the ranting, and the endless repeating of how unsettled I am, and who knows what else wacky, thanks!!! Reality is, most of my global attention is just from ideas that I share without some huge production.
For that to work though, especially to stay at the global level is about the audience for the content.
That is just how such things work.
Measurement though is so much about other people. Sure I can control the content here, and my decisions to post or not, and edit or whatever.
But measuring things like how global this blog is? That is out of my hands.
Information about interest comes from others.
James Harris
This blog was made by me over a decade ago to try to get a handle on the beyond would think, from the title. Seems lately to be where I try to process things. And for over a decade there have been people out there keeping up with my content and apparently linking to it, and finally got more thankful. You're all kind of the unsung heroes of my story? Yeah, those of you who fit that description are. I DO focus so much on myself. But for so many years it all just seemed so strange.
For so many years have wondered what is real and how to know. That can really make life a struggle because you still have to make decisions regardless, on the daily.
So much has been and still is a mystery to me. And yeah, mystery matters but I mean that to be about not showing too much to your audience. Some people like to peer behind the curtain, but more just want the performance.
Objective reality here though is telling: have maintained global interest by objective measures from 100+ countries, where THAT number comes from downloads of my open source project for over a decade.
The blogs like here, except for Lost in Commentary, trend to 50+ countries where am relying on third party sources with much from Google. Like I use Google Analytics for country counts as can look at on a yearly basis and even compare between years. I also rely on Blogger stats to some extent, but they are less extensive, for some reason. What's up with that Blogger?
And is very mysterious to me who you all are--out there, all over the world.
Maybe I should work on that, huh? Will consider. There are HUGE positives to me with how things have gone. And have talked here much about the web benefit of being in control, yourself. But the big negative is: then how do you make money? Which to me seems kind of pathetic. Never thought money-making focus would end up driving so much. But also is forcing me to settle things.
We can get a pure attention reality where you share your thoughts and people can be interested, or not. Without so many intermediaries who could too often in the past simply be gatekeepers, who could block people just based on their moods or discretions.
In our times we can know just how terribly that worked as SO many people who would never have done well in the old systems, are getting global now. Guess can count myself as one? Guess I should.
So yeah, I need to work on the mystery. Who are YOU who may be reading now? For those who have supported me through the years, amid the ranting, and the endless repeating of how unsettled I am, and who knows what else wacky, thanks!!! Reality is, most of my global attention is just from ideas that I share without some huge production.
For that to work though, especially to stay at the global level is about the audience for the content.
That is just how such things work.
Measurement though is so much about other people. Sure I can control the content here, and my decisions to post or not, and edit or whatever.
But measuring things like how global this blog is? That is out of my hands.
Information about interest comes from others.
James Harris
Wednesday, June 06, 2018
Some quick background
Grew up in the United States in Tift County, just outside the small city of Tifton, GA, actually next to a farm. Is a rural area. And is part of what is known as the Deep South.
Did tend to confuse some people though.
Debating if should add more or not, and think this particular post works for just some tidbits, from so long ago seems like now. Last was over 20 years ago.
James Harris
- Went to my first college course at Abraham Baldwin Agricultural College usually simply called ABAC when I was 12, where I got an A, with a simple course to me on BASIC programming language back in 1982.
- Went to Duke University twice as part of their Talent Identification Program also called TIP, which is summer program for gifted youth. Studied math first time and computer science the second, with a course in Structured C taught by a researcher from the IBM Research Triangle.
- Had highest SAT of my high school class and went on to study at Vanderbilt University, where got my degree in physics, in 1991.
- Random information: had six college credit hours before graduating high school and didn't bother to declare them when enrolled at Vanderbilt. Later asked and they said was too late (I think if remember correctly). Oh well. Didn't matter though.
- Enlisted in the US Army after graduating, oddly enough but feel like was a great decision. And I worked my entire time on active duty in medical areas. Like at first was primarily an EKG tech is the civilian but the military title was way cooler: Cardiac Specialist
Did tend to confuse some people though.
Debating if should add more or not, and think this particular post works for just some tidbits, from so long ago seems like now. Last was over 20 years ago.
James Harris
Tuesday, June 05, 2018
Comfort in time with global
With a rapidly changing world is not surprising to have things that can rattle you. And for people who build things that operate globally in any way, am sure there is quite a bit to that reality. Where for most that will be as part of some organization, and include lots of structure.
And that would be with a single global product, where for me there are roughly half a dozen is my rough estimate where have talked how consider.
So imagine a global team with one thing and how that might stress them as they work to maintain. There IS a global standard folks. Just look around you to consider various global entities. Where I readily admit do that often. And at times am checking also where that standard is, as shifts.
Then imagine a single human with a global thing, who is not me.
To get to me, consider someone who has at least half a dozen, he thinks. And I have to manage all of it. Where I primarily use 4 blogs now, where this one helps me consider such things.
Maintaining a global presence in our times is an interesting challenge to me. The competition?
Is relentless.
However, usually am competing with myself, which I noticed when that got really hard, and started lowering my expectations. Like for this blog is 60+ countries annually really necessary? By web measures from strangers I have to trust anyway? And realized that 50+ or around there is good enough for me!
What does it do to a person though? I wonder. More and more am looking at other things in different ways as get even more meta. More curious about, how do I do it? I realized, I probably need to know.
And there is a relentlessness to the activity in a way though more manage as thankfully everything is on, and available 24 hours a day. So what is in flow as I like to describe it, is a constant thing to consider.
Any fixes have to be done while everything is in full production, unless am building something HUGE like a new primary portal, like was happening with my latest blog. Otherwise full production mode, for 24 hours a day, 365 days a year is the basic standard.
Where new things like this post, go quickly to in flow, and then I edit until satisfied with option to edit just about anything, anywhere if a command decision to do so is made.
Eventually I think executive function has to be always there but in the background lots, where web makes that possible. Often just need a smartphone and a web connection and if necessary can make executive decisions. But best thing is for that to almost never be necessary.
But have awakened in the past like at 2 am realizing need to fix something. I really do not like that happening. Get on the web, get it done, and get back to sleep then. Reminding myself to work harder, and smarter. Efficiency is a necessity or you just cannot get everything done.
People check things relentlessly. You need things operational that are always there to answer.
To my mind is primarily about a focus on functional ideas.
So much about attention elsewhere in our times has been about mood chasing. Like entertainment I say is just a way to safely control mood.
Focusing on ideas as attention drivers has long been a working concept for me. And I like to talk about my ideas as entities.
The ideas actually do the work of drawing attention when people find them useful, so functional perspective is best is my philosophy. And the web enables global distribution, which is rapid and constant. Yeah that explains a lot.
As rattled by web disruption as have been in the past, time has allowed a certain comfort to return. Experience can be a great teacher. With new things so revolutionary like the web is only way I know to learn--by DOING things.
So I try things, and try to figure out what happens as a result. Is fun, usually. More comfortable with global now, but so many years of massive effort to get here.
James Harris
And that would be with a single global product, where for me there are roughly half a dozen is my rough estimate where have talked how consider.
So imagine a global team with one thing and how that might stress them as they work to maintain. There IS a global standard folks. Just look around you to consider various global entities. Where I readily admit do that often. And at times am checking also where that standard is, as shifts.
Then imagine a single human with a global thing, who is not me.
To get to me, consider someone who has at least half a dozen, he thinks. And I have to manage all of it. Where I primarily use 4 blogs now, where this one helps me consider such things.
Maintaining a global presence in our times is an interesting challenge to me. The competition?
Is relentless.
However, usually am competing with myself, which I noticed when that got really hard, and started lowering my expectations. Like for this blog is 60+ countries annually really necessary? By web measures from strangers I have to trust anyway? And realized that 50+ or around there is good enough for me!
What does it do to a person though? I wonder. More and more am looking at other things in different ways as get even more meta. More curious about, how do I do it? I realized, I probably need to know.
And there is a relentlessness to the activity in a way though more manage as thankfully everything is on, and available 24 hours a day. So what is in flow as I like to describe it, is a constant thing to consider.
Any fixes have to be done while everything is in full production, unless am building something HUGE like a new primary portal, like was happening with my latest blog. Otherwise full production mode, for 24 hours a day, 365 days a year is the basic standard.
Where new things like this post, go quickly to in flow, and then I edit until satisfied with option to edit just about anything, anywhere if a command decision to do so is made.
Eventually I think executive function has to be always there but in the background lots, where web makes that possible. Often just need a smartphone and a web connection and if necessary can make executive decisions. But best thing is for that to almost never be necessary.
But have awakened in the past like at 2 am realizing need to fix something. I really do not like that happening. Get on the web, get it done, and get back to sleep then. Reminding myself to work harder, and smarter. Efficiency is a necessity or you just cannot get everything done.
People check things relentlessly. You need things operational that are always there to answer.
To my mind is primarily about a focus on functional ideas.
So much about attention elsewhere in our times has been about mood chasing. Like entertainment I say is just a way to safely control mood.
Focusing on ideas as attention drivers has long been a working concept for me. And I like to talk about my ideas as entities.
The ideas actually do the work of drawing attention when people find them useful, so functional perspective is best is my philosophy. And the web enables global distribution, which is rapid and constant. Yeah that explains a lot.
As rattled by web disruption as have been in the past, time has allowed a certain comfort to return. Experience can be a great teacher. With new things so revolutionary like the web is only way I know to learn--by DOING things.
So I try things, and try to figure out what happens as a result. Is fun, usually. More comfortable with global now, but so many years of massive effort to get here.
James Harris
Friday, June 01, 2018
Be professional tell myself
Got lucky in so many ways where discuss much, as talked my backstory quite a bit more recently where used this blog primarily. And one word meant a lot for me, which is, unsettled. Where am glad had another word, professionalism, to ponder where solid ground could be found.
There is something about what like to call the stranger economy where you can go get wonderful things, as long as you have the money and behave somewhat yourself. Like few places want you walking in naked for anything, even if you're holding a wad of cash. And where can you get away with being rude? Or other things not to do could list? (Of course some places you are quite welcome nude.) We have to follow some rules, as humans, if we are to get things usually, from our fellow humans.
And being professional is very telling. But what is it really?
Easier to talk what it is not. Like actually had a vague plan in mind for my first interview with a major news organization, which was actually able to implement. That was because happened as a karaoke singer which have brought up before. And I was just one of several, for a fluff piece for the San Francisco Chronicle which ended up published literally on the last page.
But whoosh! That was the impact for me for a few days in the city, which is another subject. But what was fun was I knew by then I was global. But not in a way apparently that registers even now much with established press.
Have seized on one easily shared fact for one thing I have, which is a software tool, which I use which is for Java developers. With downloads from over 150 countries in its lifetime, I can focus on that as proof global.
My personal creation where I wrote every bit of it. Was all my decision to put it up and keep it up. And I still control my code completely, though also is open source which means that is not suppressive in any meaningful way. Others could build from if they wished.
So I would ask myself, to move from surreal to real: how many people can put up something entirely their own which can gather any kind of attention from over 150 countries? That one would stump my ability to try to rationalize away as maybe nothing important. Then though that other thing would gain greater force--unsettled. Not much else made sense as forced myself to focus objective.
But got fun out of it, with a very unprofessional interview for my first interview with a major news organization as San Francisco Chronicle qualifies. Had been drinking before the reporter informed he would be interviewing me and others, but hey, is a karaoke bar, of course! Got to drinking more.
Directed him around to other singers till he got to me last, and I cursed every other word. He just smiled benignly at me. Have told this story before but guess love it so much, so like to repeat it.
Of course no curse words would make it into what made it into the paper but I was happier that way anyway. Not like I would want that published, you know?
Was a flight from my ideas really. Even the silly of it, was an escape. And have talked that subject more as well. My ideas are always there though. They challenge me relentlessly. I work hard to find ways to feel more settled.
Was just the thrill of being able to do that wild interview when knew it would not matter, for once. My aim now of course for any other interviews is to be a consummate professional is the phrase. Like I should write that down, maybe even to make certain is clear even to myself. Ok I tell myself. Ok.
There are just rules we need to follow as humans beings if we wish to get along well with our fellow human beings. Writing things down helps me, really it does.
Do aim so much to be, civilized.
Talking about things now where am so glad were SO many years ago, can feel like distant subjects. Am lucky there too. Things barely had time to consider in the past finally feel make sense to me now.
Where so much finally does feel, settled.
James Harris
There is something about what like to call the stranger economy where you can go get wonderful things, as long as you have the money and behave somewhat yourself. Like few places want you walking in naked for anything, even if you're holding a wad of cash. And where can you get away with being rude? Or other things not to do could list? (Of course some places you are quite welcome nude.) We have to follow some rules, as humans, if we are to get things usually, from our fellow humans.
And being professional is very telling. But what is it really?
Easier to talk what it is not. Like actually had a vague plan in mind for my first interview with a major news organization, which was actually able to implement. That was because happened as a karaoke singer which have brought up before. And I was just one of several, for a fluff piece for the San Francisco Chronicle which ended up published literally on the last page.
But whoosh! That was the impact for me for a few days in the city, which is another subject. But what was fun was I knew by then I was global. But not in a way apparently that registers even now much with established press.
Have seized on one easily shared fact for one thing I have, which is a software tool, which I use which is for Java developers. With downloads from over 150 countries in its lifetime, I can focus on that as proof global.
My personal creation where I wrote every bit of it. Was all my decision to put it up and keep it up. And I still control my code completely, though also is open source which means that is not suppressive in any meaningful way. Others could build from if they wished.
So I would ask myself, to move from surreal to real: how many people can put up something entirely their own which can gather any kind of attention from over 150 countries? That one would stump my ability to try to rationalize away as maybe nothing important. Then though that other thing would gain greater force--unsettled. Not much else made sense as forced myself to focus objective.
But got fun out of it, with a very unprofessional interview for my first interview with a major news organization as San Francisco Chronicle qualifies. Had been drinking before the reporter informed he would be interviewing me and others, but hey, is a karaoke bar, of course! Got to drinking more.
Directed him around to other singers till he got to me last, and I cursed every other word. He just smiled benignly at me. Have told this story before but guess love it so much, so like to repeat it.
Of course no curse words would make it into what made it into the paper but I was happier that way anyway. Not like I would want that published, you know?
Was a flight from my ideas really. Even the silly of it, was an escape. And have talked that subject more as well. My ideas are always there though. They challenge me relentlessly. I work hard to find ways to feel more settled.
Was just the thrill of being able to do that wild interview when knew it would not matter, for once. My aim now of course for any other interviews is to be a consummate professional is the phrase. Like I should write that down, maybe even to make certain is clear even to myself. Ok I tell myself. Ok.
There are just rules we need to follow as humans beings if we wish to get along well with our fellow human beings. Writing things down helps me, really it does.
Do aim so much to be, civilized.
Talking about things now where am so glad were SO many years ago, can feel like distant subjects. Am lucky there too. Things barely had time to consider in the past finally feel make sense to me now.
Where so much finally does feel, settled.
James Harris
Saturday, May 12, 2018
With primary objectives achieved, now what?
Was good to finally talk so much of the backstory for why I do things. Which goes all the way back to when I was 18, and had a dream, which felt like an impossible dream. And then finally when was 25 began what readily admitted seemed like a Quixotic quest, until was doable.
And now am done. So now what?
There is that part of you that wishes to explain...there is that part of me that wishes to explain further. But no point rehashing so much already discussed in prior posts. And then there is that question of how do I know am done? Because I am. Objectives achieved. World changed...time to move on.
Setting up the next set of goals though, should be more personal. With global attention now, yeah am still pondering that much, while will admit mainly wish to not let it control me.
LOTS done to make that very difficult. Like got my own personal political party. Is mine, primarily to help me navigate global politics without getting pulled into anything.
From a baseline of very little money, wondering where will make money, to pondering how I managed to get certain things done there is that sense that vacation would be nice.
Maybe...will ponder. Nah. Just gotta figure out my next goals. Set some short timeline ones. Yup.
Now then, if your first things were to change the world for the better, what should you do next?
Um, self? Am asking you, ok? Just posting like that for rhetorical reasons. So um, can you please let me in on the next thing?
Talking to myself? Usually works out ok. Really.
Well at least that's what I like to tell myself.
James Harris
And now am done. So now what?
There is that part of you that wishes to explain...there is that part of me that wishes to explain further. But no point rehashing so much already discussed in prior posts. And then there is that question of how do I know am done? Because I am. Objectives achieved. World changed...time to move on.
Setting up the next set of goals though, should be more personal. With global attention now, yeah am still pondering that much, while will admit mainly wish to not let it control me.
LOTS done to make that very difficult. Like got my own personal political party. Is mine, primarily to help me navigate global politics without getting pulled into anything.
From a baseline of very little money, wondering where will make money, to pondering how I managed to get certain things done there is that sense that vacation would be nice.
Maybe...will ponder. Nah. Just gotta figure out my next goals. Set some short timeline ones. Yup.
Now then, if your first things were to change the world for the better, what should you do next?
Um, self? Am asking you, ok? Just posting like that for rhetorical reasons. So um, can you please let me in on the next thing?
Talking to myself? Usually works out ok. Really.
Well at least that's what I like to tell myself.
James Harris
Tuesday, May 01, 2018
Some mystery with world reaction
My first major result was in 1996, where I ended up with a route to denial and seized with gusto. Could debate with myself endlessly whether was correct or not, but chose to move on, which was the correct decision. And in 1999 was making myself do karaoke, which was fun. But was preparing myself for lots that did not happen.
And when had yet another major math discovery found my previous paths to denial were removed, so learned new ways to escape.
The world did react in August 2002 and has routinely reacted to things I have discovered, which to me is weird, and much of it was mysterious. Where my blogs have worked through lots, or I should write have worked through much with writing on my blogs but feels the other way.
Some may notice on social media will routinely address the world as is easier for me.
Our species is apparently aware on some higher level of what is going on, and is protecting itself against certain things but in ways that puzzle me. So yes, there are some humans who thought to separate themselves into a higher class. They seized a huge amount of power in major governments around the world and especially in the US. And they knew about climate change, but my assessment is, were more obsessed with creating a neo-feudal reality where YOU would bow before them.
And they failed.
Their systems are crumbling now. Vast manipulations primarily relying on American entertainment industry to convince you that only money should matter. So you would worship or be compelled to worship the wealthiest members of society--even if simply born into wealth.
Even when you knew better, or were told truths that should matter more.
And in the US, they had begun to groom their children for political power, where many Americans already were just accepting it. They had even practiced torture--for those Americans who might resist, and so many Americans so calmly just watched them.
And was amusing to simply watch them react to a celebrity president, in power now, and watch if they cared if he maybe, just might actually destroy the world. A signal to them that they had lost control but greater powers were amused enough to make that ironically known.
Where is disappointing really how accepting so many people are of it all.
Is like our species has already lost so much of its curiosity.
That reality lessens the value of our species in some ways, but maybe is more important for our bigger purpose, I comfort myself with that notion.
We no longer are needed so much by our reality for discovery, clearly. So fewer people care to know. And people like me are now even more rare than before. Discoverers think different.
Especially in my country so many people clearly simply wish to be entertained. So few of them care to know--truth. Fictions try to rule their lives, and they happily comply, living out meaningless existences, only to leave the planet eventually with what achieved?
Maybe they at least leave children who maybe someday will learn how to work to be greater, and pursue meaning in their lives.
The world does not care though as has bigger plans. But most people do not even want to know what is being decided for their fate, and the fate of their children and grandchildren.
Ok.
Well at least they will not be bowing before oligarchs in the US who put themselves up as a neo-royalty. Even though some of you still try, to bow, before them. We watch you too.
Who are we? We are the people who are aware, in a world that is aware as well, with so much playing out for a future that is on its way, like it or not.
You will be ruled, but by what?
Will best knowledge available rule your behavior? Where your free will means really you rule yourself? We are defined, by what we DO.
Or will you be ruled by others carefully feeding you information so you are a tool for their wants? Maybe even if they are artificial intelligences?
Most humans on our planet do not even seem to care to know. But how can they? How can you? Know?
Maybe is better that way even though I think our world will be vastly improved by authorities emerging with full power now.
What you know WILL matter for how you live. And if you choose ignorance, you will find your life may be ok, anyway, by the forces that then choose better for you.
For those who choose knowledge for the good of our species, I cheer you. Your destiny is one to be earned.
On our planet now there are billions of humans, who make up a world that knows more collectively than ever before, and maybe has less and less concern with what we each want.
Knowledge though, is a power in our time unlike before when truths can rip through the world with fury, or salve the wounds, and help all of us to better.
How will you choose?
Your world will know. Web will tell.
James Harris
And when had yet another major math discovery found my previous paths to denial were removed, so learned new ways to escape.
The world did react in August 2002 and has routinely reacted to things I have discovered, which to me is weird, and much of it was mysterious. Where my blogs have worked through lots, or I should write have worked through much with writing on my blogs but feels the other way.
Some may notice on social media will routinely address the world as is easier for me.
Our species is apparently aware on some higher level of what is going on, and is protecting itself against certain things but in ways that puzzle me. So yes, there are some humans who thought to separate themselves into a higher class. They seized a huge amount of power in major governments around the world and especially in the US. And they knew about climate change, but my assessment is, were more obsessed with creating a neo-feudal reality where YOU would bow before them.
And they failed.
Their systems are crumbling now. Vast manipulations primarily relying on American entertainment industry to convince you that only money should matter. So you would worship or be compelled to worship the wealthiest members of society--even if simply born into wealth.
Even when you knew better, or were told truths that should matter more.
And in the US, they had begun to groom their children for political power, where many Americans already were just accepting it. They had even practiced torture--for those Americans who might resist, and so many Americans so calmly just watched them.
And was amusing to simply watch them react to a celebrity president, in power now, and watch if they cared if he maybe, just might actually destroy the world. A signal to them that they had lost control but greater powers were amused enough to make that ironically known.
Where is disappointing really how accepting so many people are of it all.
Is like our species has already lost so much of its curiosity.
That reality lessens the value of our species in some ways, but maybe is more important for our bigger purpose, I comfort myself with that notion.
We no longer are needed so much by our reality for discovery, clearly. So fewer people care to know. And people like me are now even more rare than before. Discoverers think different.
Especially in my country so many people clearly simply wish to be entertained. So few of them care to know--truth. Fictions try to rule their lives, and they happily comply, living out meaningless existences, only to leave the planet eventually with what achieved?
Maybe they at least leave children who maybe someday will learn how to work to be greater, and pursue meaning in their lives.
The world does not care though as has bigger plans. But most people do not even want to know what is being decided for their fate, and the fate of their children and grandchildren.
Ok.
Well at least they will not be bowing before oligarchs in the US who put themselves up as a neo-royalty. Even though some of you still try, to bow, before them. We watch you too.
Who are we? We are the people who are aware, in a world that is aware as well, with so much playing out for a future that is on its way, like it or not.
You will be ruled, but by what?
Will best knowledge available rule your behavior? Where your free will means really you rule yourself? We are defined, by what we DO.
Or will you be ruled by others carefully feeding you information so you are a tool for their wants? Maybe even if they are artificial intelligences?
Most humans on our planet do not even seem to care to know. But how can they? How can you? Know?
Maybe is better that way even though I think our world will be vastly improved by authorities emerging with full power now.
What you know WILL matter for how you live. And if you choose ignorance, you will find your life may be ok, anyway, by the forces that then choose better for you.
For those who choose knowledge for the good of our species, I cheer you. Your destiny is one to be earned.
On our planet now there are billions of humans, who make up a world that knows more collectively than ever before, and maybe has less and less concern with what we each want.
Knowledge though, is a power in our time unlike before when truths can rip through the world with fury, or salve the wounds, and help all of us to better.
How will you choose?
Your world will know. Web will tell.
James Harris
Thursday, April 26, 2018
Over 23 years pondering much
Decided on April 15, 1995 as my date for when really started pondering much with the idea of actually getting something BIG, where picked USA tax day so wouldn't forget. Which makes me somewhat suspicious now over 23 years later, but have also said before has to be close to actual date.
And maybe was a bit pretentious of me at the time, in my mid-twenties but had treasured my own dream since was 18 years old of figuring SOMETHING out major. And back then had decided would need to be math, for objective reasons.
Even earlier had read kid biographies of some of my heroes like Sir Isaac Newton and Albert Einstein, whom I mention as pertinent in this area. Like I wondered at times, if lived in their times, with what they knew, could I have figured out what they did? And to me such was the impossible dream, which is what I told myself.
So also note realized was a great opportunity to exercise my mind. And all along was making sure would have something valuable no matter what, even if could not reach what then I made myself think of, as an impossible dream. Though now realize how part of me could also realize was maybe possible. My main thinking for a long time was that maybe modern problem solving techniques might make a difference, against old problems.
There was other complexity to my thinking as well where have explained more recently. And yes, also felt like was on a Quixotic quest at times. Is fun. Helps keep things in perspective to be so honest.
As then could comfort myself: even if I failed at least I knew upfront what was up against. And would constantly work to make sure would not be left with nothing for my efforts, if only had benefits of relentless training. Relentless training can be so cool as long as you make certain is not damaging in ANY way. That part have debated with myself as to how well achieved, especially with so much time spent.
Of course have mentioned before taught myself calculus at 12 because Albert Einstein did. Which to me is also a value in even those kiddie biographies though they tend to leave out much, which is appropriate thing to do recognizing maturity is important.
And I did have my degree in physics from Vanderbilt University for many reasons. Where main reason for the choice is because I had the ability. But also yeah, quite a few of my heroes since childhood were physicists. I would not go on to become one though, as did not pursue graduate studies.
And the web had been around of course but much in terms of making useful was maturing around that time. Where I DO need to keep a record as had to check as Google wasn't around yet. The web was kind of this new thing where people were trying to figure out what good it was. And wasn't that easy to find things.
Eventually I'd end up on Usenet talking math, where now wonder when got on through Google Groups. Thought was in 1996, but if Google was founded in 1998, guess it wasn't. Oh, I think Google bought something or other? I do need to keep a better record of how I do things or end up puzzling much, years later.
Wasn't until 2005 that blogs were big enough and big enough in my mind that I started ones, like this one! Though their existence back then was far less, stable. I'm not sure how many I deleted. I know one of my current ones was deleted and brought back. I don't think I deleted this one, but am not sure if did and brought back.
Glossing over other web efforts as looking more at the big picture here.
And didn't really get to social media other than blogs, which I consider social media, until got on Twitter which I know happened a bit over 9 years ago. Thanks to Twitter for reminding me where now also have plenty of other social media.
Well this post was useful. Thinking to myself maybe need to work more at putting down pertinent facts as get vague over time. And then I find myself wasting mental energy trying to remember details. Or just chattering away with wrong ones, like thought Google was around earlier in my own story.
Oh, so have talked much more in LOTS of other posts about my achieving my dreams, where now am more transparent on the full details. And so much may look like a work in progress to others. When if it were?
I'd still be doing more pondering. Now am more wondering, and talking things out.
James Harris
And maybe was a bit pretentious of me at the time, in my mid-twenties but had treasured my own dream since was 18 years old of figuring SOMETHING out major. And back then had decided would need to be math, for objective reasons.
Even earlier had read kid biographies of some of my heroes like Sir Isaac Newton and Albert Einstein, whom I mention as pertinent in this area. Like I wondered at times, if lived in their times, with what they knew, could I have figured out what they did? And to me such was the impossible dream, which is what I told myself.
So also note realized was a great opportunity to exercise my mind. And all along was making sure would have something valuable no matter what, even if could not reach what then I made myself think of, as an impossible dream. Though now realize how part of me could also realize was maybe possible. My main thinking for a long time was that maybe modern problem solving techniques might make a difference, against old problems.
There was other complexity to my thinking as well where have explained more recently. And yes, also felt like was on a Quixotic quest at times. Is fun. Helps keep things in perspective to be so honest.
As then could comfort myself: even if I failed at least I knew upfront what was up against. And would constantly work to make sure would not be left with nothing for my efforts, if only had benefits of relentless training. Relentless training can be so cool as long as you make certain is not damaging in ANY way. That part have debated with myself as to how well achieved, especially with so much time spent.
Of course have mentioned before taught myself calculus at 12 because Albert Einstein did. Which to me is also a value in even those kiddie biographies though they tend to leave out much, which is appropriate thing to do recognizing maturity is important.
And I did have my degree in physics from Vanderbilt University for many reasons. Where main reason for the choice is because I had the ability. But also yeah, quite a few of my heroes since childhood were physicists. I would not go on to become one though, as did not pursue graduate studies.
And the web had been around of course but much in terms of making useful was maturing around that time. Where I DO need to keep a record as had to check as Google wasn't around yet. The web was kind of this new thing where people were trying to figure out what good it was. And wasn't that easy to find things.
Eventually I'd end up on Usenet talking math, where now wonder when got on through Google Groups. Thought was in 1996, but if Google was founded in 1998, guess it wasn't. Oh, I think Google bought something or other? I do need to keep a better record of how I do things or end up puzzling much, years later.
Wasn't until 2005 that blogs were big enough and big enough in my mind that I started ones, like this one! Though their existence back then was far less, stable. I'm not sure how many I deleted. I know one of my current ones was deleted and brought back. I don't think I deleted this one, but am not sure if did and brought back.
Glossing over other web efforts as looking more at the big picture here.
And didn't really get to social media other than blogs, which I consider social media, until got on Twitter which I know happened a bit over 9 years ago. Thanks to Twitter for reminding me where now also have plenty of other social media.
Well this post was useful. Thinking to myself maybe need to work more at putting down pertinent facts as get vague over time. And then I find myself wasting mental energy trying to remember details. Or just chattering away with wrong ones, like thought Google was around earlier in my own story.
Oh, so have talked much more in LOTS of other posts about my achieving my dreams, where now am more transparent on the full details. And so much may look like a work in progress to others. When if it were?
I'd still be doing more pondering. Now am more wondering, and talking things out.
James Harris
Tuesday, April 24, 2018
But what about others?
So talk about myself as world's latest major discoverer, where my first BIG discovery was in 1996, with a math thing. And then had something I emphasize for some reason August 2002, also math. And also tend to emphasize publication in a math journal, where chief editor tried to pull after, and journal keeled over and died, back in 2004.
Now over fourteen years later it does stretch credulity for that reason as well. What about the much vaunted ability to put things out there on the web?
And yeah, web DOES work. My own analysis is more difficult here, but plenty of evidence suggests those events were epic for the global math community. And there you have a clue--epic for math community.
We DO rely much on what communities report.
Math people for some reason apparently decided to not report externally. And I am cagey on assessments I made as tried to study that community from the outside. I am NOT a mathematician.
There does appear to have been leakage into popular culture. I guess at much, but don't count it much as usually just find it funny to me. I do not discuss in detail as is highly speculative.
With other things I assessed immediate changes. Like there were shifts from my putting forward a functional definition of science. Turns out that can help scientists, and people who pay for science funding as well. Why I emphasized predictive certainty with checking them.
My purpose though was as stated: needed to shift how discussions went on impending changes to Earth's climate.
And my functional definition for entertainment lead to rather remarkable shifts as well.
So yeah, everything I put out gets checked, relentlessly. Then there are failures of various communities, to which I do NOT belong, to report! Which I find fascinating.
That strategy of just refusing to report I think often DID work--before the web. Such a simple strategy from a different time and now can say, from a different world in so many ways.
Our web enabled world creates a new reality. Now people all over the world can easily just check me on facts which to me is better.
My global attention reality, is merit ruled, web enabled.
James Harris
Now over fourteen years later it does stretch credulity for that reason as well. What about the much vaunted ability to put things out there on the web?
And yeah, web DOES work. My own analysis is more difficult here, but plenty of evidence suggests those events were epic for the global math community. And there you have a clue--epic for math community.
We DO rely much on what communities report.
Math people for some reason apparently decided to not report externally. And I am cagey on assessments I made as tried to study that community from the outside. I am NOT a mathematician.
There does appear to have been leakage into popular culture. I guess at much, but don't count it much as usually just find it funny to me. I do not discuss in detail as is highly speculative.
With other things I assessed immediate changes. Like there were shifts from my putting forward a functional definition of science. Turns out that can help scientists, and people who pay for science funding as well. Why I emphasized predictive certainty with checking them.
My purpose though was as stated: needed to shift how discussions went on impending changes to Earth's climate.
And my functional definition for entertainment lead to rather remarkable shifts as well.
So yeah, everything I put out gets checked, relentlessly. Then there are failures of various communities, to which I do NOT belong, to report! Which I find fascinating.
That strategy of just refusing to report I think often DID work--before the web. Such a simple strategy from a different time and now can say, from a different world in so many ways.
Our web enabled world creates a new reality. Now people all over the world can easily just check me on facts which to me is better.
My global attention reality, is merit ruled, web enabled.
James Harris
Monday, April 16, 2018
Matters of time for that perspective
The one word that has ruled too much for my comfort for a long time has been FEAR as tried to figure things out with my web reality. Was like all my foundations tumbled away, and there were times simply tried to move less but always to keep moving.
Remember one of the last times tried to celebrate anything with family. Happily told my late stepmother about my prime counting find back August 2002. Am not sure how much made sense to her. And probably never did, and she died from cancer a few years ago.
With my folks disbelief definitely ruled. And it does hurt a bit especially...will not talk in detail as is a personal problem. The fear thing was smart though. Routinely have put up things that challenge nations and am usually right. To me information is not personal and is not playing favorites.
But humans can get mean about the messenger. Maybe there is some weird satisfaction for some with finding some way to lash out at reality you do not like.
The disbelief thing is understandable to me. Am the closest person to much of my own research of course, and have lots of motivation to understand the implications and to figure out the details. Still have constantly struggled with disbelief myself. But then I can test, and test. And can recheck and recheck. Or more importantly, make other discoveries that tell or find reality checks from others.
If I talk about big discoveries to others they naturally can look around to find out who is backing me up.
While for me for a long time there has been that puzzle of support that is very distant from what I can gather. Like I talk visits from all over the world to this blog. Could also talk about linking behavior.
Have been cautious in admitting that I remember only once finding a link to anything of mine from others on the web, where someone had linked to some of my math on her math blog. I rarely get feedback of any kind beyond looking at web stats. But also spent years at one point arguing with haters over math on Usenet, so kind of appreciate it? Yeah, but still is a puzzle.
With some of my things can look at stats, from Google showing linking behavior, which I appreciate. And maybe talk less because that messes with it, and am not sure why. I prefer transparency and talking things that help others build confidence I guess. But yeah will talk country counts, but not total visit numbers. Will not talk reported linking behavior much.
The FEAR that I felt when learned of my arrival to global attention levels did not stop me. It would have me go slowly. And years would go by and I would be fine with it, certain that in time there would be answers. Or was desperate that there would be. My emotions could shift between surreal calm with the surreal to total panic, which was thankfully rare.
Realized got to be a pathfinder. Before now, no humans could be so globally known in this way on the daily, with so much available for their fellow humans to consider so easily at such distances.
So I can just think some thoughts, and put some out here, and ponder which ones interest people all over our planet. That is SO cool. But why wouldn't there be some healthy fear attached? How could there not be?
You do not need some massive organization or backing network to be global in our times, though am sure it helps. And of course there are those with that who have a global experience.
No, the new isn't for those who find global attention in ways that are from legacy things of the past.
We now have a global network available widely. Letting in a new kind of global person and am one who is still trying to learn.
And have not been exactly welcoming for a long time in trying to encourage feedback. Have tried more now as have looked to be more commercial as money problems are dominating. Which to me is a specious reason. But good thing is, as try more, am challenging the fear. Is more manageable now.
So yeah for those who wonder. People close to me don't believe me. My support is so much web, with much from people who are invisible to me. Find myself trusting third parties, but primarily have Google sharing the information I need.
And am thankful for perspective that required so much time.
Feel like have been forced to understand the foundations of my sense of reality. And readily admit, share explanation that are often much for myself.
Will not regret being cautious in the face of so much change.
Do value the help. And so many of you reading are so much a mystery to me, but your support has been so important for so many years. Maybe in time will get better perspective there as well.
Meanwhile the great adventure is what I like to call it all--continues. And things just keep getting more interesting I think. And I DO think a lot. Is comforting for me, really.
James Harris
Remember one of the last times tried to celebrate anything with family. Happily told my late stepmother about my prime counting find back August 2002. Am not sure how much made sense to her. And probably never did, and she died from cancer a few years ago.
With my folks disbelief definitely ruled. And it does hurt a bit especially...will not talk in detail as is a personal problem. The fear thing was smart though. Routinely have put up things that challenge nations and am usually right. To me information is not personal and is not playing favorites.
But humans can get mean about the messenger. Maybe there is some weird satisfaction for some with finding some way to lash out at reality you do not like.
The disbelief thing is understandable to me. Am the closest person to much of my own research of course, and have lots of motivation to understand the implications and to figure out the details. Still have constantly struggled with disbelief myself. But then I can test, and test. And can recheck and recheck. Or more importantly, make other discoveries that tell or find reality checks from others.
If I talk about big discoveries to others they naturally can look around to find out who is backing me up.
While for me for a long time there has been that puzzle of support that is very distant from what I can gather. Like I talk visits from all over the world to this blog. Could also talk about linking behavior.
Have been cautious in admitting that I remember only once finding a link to anything of mine from others on the web, where someone had linked to some of my math on her math blog. I rarely get feedback of any kind beyond looking at web stats. But also spent years at one point arguing with haters over math on Usenet, so kind of appreciate it? Yeah, but still is a puzzle.
With some of my things can look at stats, from Google showing linking behavior, which I appreciate. And maybe talk less because that messes with it, and am not sure why. I prefer transparency and talking things that help others build confidence I guess. But yeah will talk country counts, but not total visit numbers. Will not talk reported linking behavior much.
The FEAR that I felt when learned of my arrival to global attention levels did not stop me. It would have me go slowly. And years would go by and I would be fine with it, certain that in time there would be answers. Or was desperate that there would be. My emotions could shift between surreal calm with the surreal to total panic, which was thankfully rare.
Realized got to be a pathfinder. Before now, no humans could be so globally known in this way on the daily, with so much available for their fellow humans to consider so easily at such distances.
So I can just think some thoughts, and put some out here, and ponder which ones interest people all over our planet. That is SO cool. But why wouldn't there be some healthy fear attached? How could there not be?
You do not need some massive organization or backing network to be global in our times, though am sure it helps. And of course there are those with that who have a global experience.
No, the new isn't for those who find global attention in ways that are from legacy things of the past.
We now have a global network available widely. Letting in a new kind of global person and am one who is still trying to learn.
And have not been exactly welcoming for a long time in trying to encourage feedback. Have tried more now as have looked to be more commercial as money problems are dominating. Which to me is a specious reason. But good thing is, as try more, am challenging the fear. Is more manageable now.
So yeah for those who wonder. People close to me don't believe me. My support is so much web, with much from people who are invisible to me. Find myself trusting third parties, but primarily have Google sharing the information I need.
And am thankful for perspective that required so much time.
Feel like have been forced to understand the foundations of my sense of reality. And readily admit, share explanation that are often much for myself.
Will not regret being cautious in the face of so much change.
Do value the help. And so many of you reading are so much a mystery to me, but your support has been so important for so many years. Maybe in time will get better perspective there as well.
Meanwhile the great adventure is what I like to call it all--continues. And things just keep getting more interesting I think. And I DO think a lot. Is comforting for me, really.
James Harris
Saturday, April 14, 2018
Attention, money and better perspective
Am owning certain things more now, with more direct explanation of my situation. Where have known for years but was puzzling much, and also trying to absorb. Like for years would repeat country counts for my blogs, as tried to get a handle. Now is more matter-of-fact. For example so far this year, this blog has had visits according to Google Analytics from 108 cities in only 39 countries. To me that's disappointing as have seen much higher numbers in the past.
Thank you for reading though! Those stats don't even give all the folks, but just hint. Maybe they reflect your reading here, maybe they do not. But at least you know others like you are from lots of places.
But what does it mean really?
Well it is about people like YOU reading and others around the globe who show up, with that method of measure which is just an indicator. For quite a few years was focused on trying to build audience numbers to something which would bring income, where have given up here.
Now have a better perspective on how the web works.
And of course your reading here does not mean money from you, and why should it? My focus shifted from money to thinking was good for community. And hey, I like having readers. I do write to be read.
But have routinely noted was funding my own efforts while working a regular job, until that got difficult, as in difficult getting one. And concluded that the web attention was the reason!
And was like, huh? But lots of the problem was with so much focus on math, where math establishment folks were NOT behaving which have talked quite a bit. And yup, for me there was a long time thinking could not be happening. My own personal beliefs about mathematicians were relentlessly challenged until evaporated under the weight of the evidence.
Learning about social disruption in other areas helped as well. But intellectually understood long before could accept emotionally.
Then discovered also there IS a system around attention, when it comes to making money. And that system is a legacy from the past, and does NOT include helping someone known globally thanks to major discoveries not acknowledged, or functional definitions that help simplify important areas. And also discovered does not seem inclined to help someone with powerful ideas simply handed to the world, like with open source.
Am thinking now is a system designed to force you into the clutches of money people.
And have posted about how money people scare me, which have noted before where yeah, dawns on me is not the kind of thing they'd like to hear.
Theoretically, the web can enable folks like myself to make money direct, without money people, though I do think they have a place, if professional and decent. Yes, I do believe money people can be decent. And by money people I mean those whose primary focus is money. So a money person can help another person make money from things they have, which the money person does not have.
Like a singer with an agent who can't sing, or do anything of interest to others, except help to get and negotiate contracts that enable that singer and the agent to make money. Singer is the one who shows up and does the work, of course. You know, like singing songs for an appreciative crowd.
My situation got complicated by race things but is dominated am sure by the social disruption of the web. The race things in my opinion were a minor impact, where finally decided may as well go ahead and clear for a variety of reasons. But of course, when you consider that I have several things that draw attention from around the globe, is improbable perceptions around such mattered much.
Like 39 countries seems dinky to me, for this year so far. All of last year was only 68 countries, with people from 322 cities which is more impressive. But yeah, when is just some numbers read off from Google Analytics where have been looking at similar for years? Emotional impact has dropped significantly.
Highlighting in bold feels good though. I still do look at such things and wonder.
We're not talking about some industry backed person, or an organization. Am enabled by the web, but that attention is purely for my ideas. Where this blog is just one arena. Am so global with so much.
It does mess with my mind as try to get a grasp as to how possible and what does it fully signify?
Years ago remember when would ponder: with those kinds of attention levels, what should I say for the good of the world? Now the sentence seems pretentious to me.
Cool thing though is when I notice which things DO interest more around the globe. So your interest helps me. Like to think my writing is useful to others, and I learn also from what draws more attention, and when. Is a constant also, so am constantly learning here, and elsewhere with my global things from interest of people from around the world.
Sure is fun for me! And am confident will figure out the money thing. Am SO scared of money people though. Wish web had developed more in the arena of best processes for money-making by now.
Part of me wonders about that though, what is going on?
James Harris
Thank you for reading though! Those stats don't even give all the folks, but just hint. Maybe they reflect your reading here, maybe they do not. But at least you know others like you are from lots of places.
But what does it mean really?
Well it is about people like YOU reading and others around the globe who show up, with that method of measure which is just an indicator. For quite a few years was focused on trying to build audience numbers to something which would bring income, where have given up here.
Now have a better perspective on how the web works.
And of course your reading here does not mean money from you, and why should it? My focus shifted from money to thinking was good for community. And hey, I like having readers. I do write to be read.
But have routinely noted was funding my own efforts while working a regular job, until that got difficult, as in difficult getting one. And concluded that the web attention was the reason!
And was like, huh? But lots of the problem was with so much focus on math, where math establishment folks were NOT behaving which have talked quite a bit. And yup, for me there was a long time thinking could not be happening. My own personal beliefs about mathematicians were relentlessly challenged until evaporated under the weight of the evidence.
Learning about social disruption in other areas helped as well. But intellectually understood long before could accept emotionally.
Then discovered also there IS a system around attention, when it comes to making money. And that system is a legacy from the past, and does NOT include helping someone known globally thanks to major discoveries not acknowledged, or functional definitions that help simplify important areas. And also discovered does not seem inclined to help someone with powerful ideas simply handed to the world, like with open source.
Am thinking now is a system designed to force you into the clutches of money people.
And have posted about how money people scare me, which have noted before where yeah, dawns on me is not the kind of thing they'd like to hear.
Theoretically, the web can enable folks like myself to make money direct, without money people, though I do think they have a place, if professional and decent. Yes, I do believe money people can be decent. And by money people I mean those whose primary focus is money. So a money person can help another person make money from things they have, which the money person does not have.
Like a singer with an agent who can't sing, or do anything of interest to others, except help to get and negotiate contracts that enable that singer and the agent to make money. Singer is the one who shows up and does the work, of course. You know, like singing songs for an appreciative crowd.
My situation got complicated by race things but is dominated am sure by the social disruption of the web. The race things in my opinion were a minor impact, where finally decided may as well go ahead and clear for a variety of reasons. But of course, when you consider that I have several things that draw attention from around the globe, is improbable perceptions around such mattered much.
Like 39 countries seems dinky to me, for this year so far. All of last year was only 68 countries, with people from 322 cities which is more impressive. But yeah, when is just some numbers read off from Google Analytics where have been looking at similar for years? Emotional impact has dropped significantly.
Highlighting in bold feels good though. I still do look at such things and wonder.
We're not talking about some industry backed person, or an organization. Am enabled by the web, but that attention is purely for my ideas. Where this blog is just one arena. Am so global with so much.
It does mess with my mind as try to get a grasp as to how possible and what does it fully signify?
Years ago remember when would ponder: with those kinds of attention levels, what should I say for the good of the world? Now the sentence seems pretentious to me.
Cool thing though is when I notice which things DO interest more around the globe. So your interest helps me. Like to think my writing is useful to others, and I learn also from what draws more attention, and when. Is a constant also, so am constantly learning here, and elsewhere with my global things from interest of people from around the world.
Sure is fun for me! And am confident will figure out the money thing. Am SO scared of money people though. Wish web had developed more in the arena of best processes for money-making by now.
Part of me wonders about that though, what is going on?
James Harris
Wednesday, April 04, 2018
Things can get SO messed up
Good news is that the web enables people to communicate better and share important ideas all over the world. But the challenging news is: that can really mess you up, and is important to realize ahead of time.
So you can be prepared. Or try to be.
And also realize, much is being figured out, so is VERY hard often to get a feel for your situation. Life must continue, regardless. Where with myself found had to drop some ways of looking at things from the past, while gleefully grabbing hold of better perspective of the now.
Like yeah, am world's latest major discoverer. And happily shared math things of great importance across the web and watched as things changed. And members of the math establishment apparently learned they could, at least near as I can tell so far, ignore properly acknowledging. Where still am not sure how they're pulling that one off. Am finding it finally irritating again. For a bit was cool with it, after the past rages.
Yeah and again am glad is math. So can prove things with absolute certainty. Which yeah would check and re-check and check again. Wish to be logical, but do not trust myself. Supposedly could trust others. That is not what reality demonstrated.
One thing with their continued success against easy mathematical proof may be people thinking that hey, if what I have is so important? How could experts in the math field possibly ignore? Yeah, see the Catch-22? I did YEARS ago.
If people struggling to hold on to advantages from the past can do that to me, when is easy to prove am world's latest major discoverer, then imagine what they can do to others.
Wow, I actually have it better. At least I can prove beyond any doubt. Others might not have that perfect assurance.
Actually is interesting that math folks would APPARENTLY fight like they have. Have to hedge much. So much is about NOT doing what is expected if presented with something new and wonderful that is mathematical. Is not like I need to do much but watch and wonder. Fighting against mathematical truth? You cannot win. You can delay the inevitable, but human beings are going to go with what actually works. Is just a matter of time.
It still seems so strange. Web disruption in that way is not intuitive to me. That dedication AGAINST might evolve as well. Then am sure would push the web to evolve more in reaction. That seems cool at least envisioning a more dynamic process, of action and reaction, with web evolution.
Am looking at arenas where people apparently have decided they no longer care what it takes and they will personally stop web revolutions if they can.
I find that attitude intriguing. And yeah, but with what methods? Find am struggling at imagining.
The web apparently is aware. And how the web reacts to such things? Can be kind of hard to understand as well. So will try to give MY guesses as how web reacts. And I talk the web kind of as an entity when am not sure to what extent may be. But is more fun.
But yeah, so maybe those HUGE social media numbers were not telling us what we thought, though I believe that having millions of followers on social media IS significant. But our belief helped drive growth--of social media. Are we more important to the web? Or is growth more important?
My view is that growth and continued evolution of the web is more important.
And I suspect the web would agree.
So yeah, expect harsh reality. Look to have things that are great on the one hand bring massive challenges on the other. And get very wary when it comes to money things. My analysis is that the web hasn't even bothered solving the money problem, as what's the motivation?
While for ME, there is HUGE motivation, and have learned to share more. Like yesterday updated my post talking what is now a situation of having been evicted. That is painful. Why share? Helps me process and also yeah, you can check me on so much that I say which is important. That information is relevant in understanding my situation as well.
Am more convinced there is a war that has erupted which is futile. Yeah, I know, resistance is futile, is classic. But the web does not care as these people are unaware of how much the web already knows. Am looking at things that simply look naive to me, until I realize: money is their focus.
So we need to figure out the money problem. And by we, mean web folks who for a long time have just been happily discovering and exploring new possibility. While others may have been ruthlessly trying to hold on to the world that was.
Have talked money much so noting a shift here as in the past thought was simply my concern to figure out how to make money. Did not occur to me also needed to consider nasty humans fighting to keep web people impoverished, as why would that occur to me?
It is such silly behavior if true. Ok, so there is a slight adjustment to considering that possibility.
And expect things to be messed up on the web if you start getting some success measures. Like with me, with MASSIVE global reach, and puny other things. Also be suspicious more on monetary matters and less trusting. Considering the possibility of short-sighted human beings fighting a losing battle which messes up your finances in the now.
The web adventure? May be simply heating up. Is cool. Is just more knowledge really. Gotta love it.
Sure know I do.
James Harris
So you can be prepared. Or try to be.
And also realize, much is being figured out, so is VERY hard often to get a feel for your situation. Life must continue, regardless. Where with myself found had to drop some ways of looking at things from the past, while gleefully grabbing hold of better perspective of the now.
Like yeah, am world's latest major discoverer. And happily shared math things of great importance across the web and watched as things changed. And members of the math establishment apparently learned they could, at least near as I can tell so far, ignore properly acknowledging. Where still am not sure how they're pulling that one off. Am finding it finally irritating again. For a bit was cool with it, after the past rages.
Yeah and again am glad is math. So can prove things with absolute certainty. Which yeah would check and re-check and check again. Wish to be logical, but do not trust myself. Supposedly could trust others. That is not what reality demonstrated.
One thing with their continued success against easy mathematical proof may be people thinking that hey, if what I have is so important? How could experts in the math field possibly ignore? Yeah, see the Catch-22? I did YEARS ago.
If people struggling to hold on to advantages from the past can do that to me, when is easy to prove am world's latest major discoverer, then imagine what they can do to others.
Wow, I actually have it better. At least I can prove beyond any doubt. Others might not have that perfect assurance.
Actually is interesting that math folks would APPARENTLY fight like they have. Have to hedge much. So much is about NOT doing what is expected if presented with something new and wonderful that is mathematical. Is not like I need to do much but watch and wonder. Fighting against mathematical truth? You cannot win. You can delay the inevitable, but human beings are going to go with what actually works. Is just a matter of time.
It still seems so strange. Web disruption in that way is not intuitive to me. That dedication AGAINST might evolve as well. Then am sure would push the web to evolve more in reaction. That seems cool at least envisioning a more dynamic process, of action and reaction, with web evolution.
Am looking at arenas where people apparently have decided they no longer care what it takes and they will personally stop web revolutions if they can.
I find that attitude intriguing. And yeah, but with what methods? Find am struggling at imagining.
The web apparently is aware. And how the web reacts to such things? Can be kind of hard to understand as well. So will try to give MY guesses as how web reacts. And I talk the web kind of as an entity when am not sure to what extent may be. But is more fun.
But yeah, so maybe those HUGE social media numbers were not telling us what we thought, though I believe that having millions of followers on social media IS significant. But our belief helped drive growth--of social media. Are we more important to the web? Or is growth more important?
My view is that growth and continued evolution of the web is more important.
And I suspect the web would agree.
So yeah, expect harsh reality. Look to have things that are great on the one hand bring massive challenges on the other. And get very wary when it comes to money things. My analysis is that the web hasn't even bothered solving the money problem, as what's the motivation?
While for ME, there is HUGE motivation, and have learned to share more. Like yesterday updated my post talking what is now a situation of having been evicted. That is painful. Why share? Helps me process and also yeah, you can check me on so much that I say which is important. That information is relevant in understanding my situation as well.
Am more convinced there is a war that has erupted which is futile. Yeah, I know, resistance is futile, is classic. But the web does not care as these people are unaware of how much the web already knows. Am looking at things that simply look naive to me, until I realize: money is their focus.
So we need to figure out the money problem. And by we, mean web folks who for a long time have just been happily discovering and exploring new possibility. While others may have been ruthlessly trying to hold on to the world that was.
Have talked money much so noting a shift here as in the past thought was simply my concern to figure out how to make money. Did not occur to me also needed to consider nasty humans fighting to keep web people impoverished, as why would that occur to me?
It is such silly behavior if true. Ok, so there is a slight adjustment to considering that possibility.
And expect things to be messed up on the web if you start getting some success measures. Like with me, with MASSIVE global reach, and puny other things. Also be suspicious more on monetary matters and less trusting. Considering the possibility of short-sighted human beings fighting a losing battle which messes up your finances in the now.
The web adventure? May be simply heating up. Is cool. Is just more knowledge really. Gotta love it.
Sure know I do.
James Harris
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