Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Understanding possibility works better

Sharing things public on the web is just fun for me, but also would at times wonder, and notice others of course who make TONS of money on the web. And there were times through the years when would wonder, how can I? And am I messing up some way with how am doing things?

It can mess with the fun if you have vague ideas that maybe you're being wrong with sharing as you do, especially if you get evidence of attention around the globe. Which is why I am glad I worked as hard as I did with figuring out things like how people make money.

And I worked on figuring out social media.

Where have tired of linking to things in posts and discovered you can find with Google search, usually. Or at least I can when I test. Like search: Beyond Mundane money flows

The other one on social media am not sure what search works best. But gist of it is, I noticed that BIG accounts on social media had an entertainment aspect, even if not in entertainment versus an importance aspect. Like government accounts could be HUGELY important but not very entertaining, and have low follow numbers. Weirdly enough though, my opinion based on my analysis was that it was how entertaining within that social media environment, so someone could be VERY entertaining on Instagram and less on Twitter, and account size would be HUGE on Instagram and not much to note on Twitter.

But what did it mean to be entertaining?

So I wondered about that and what entertainment is.

And THERE you should be able to find with search: Beyond Mundane entertainment

Didn't work as well as I thought it should when I just tried though. And have to emphasize talking about searching in Google, which luckily is the dominant one, as I don't get what I want in others when I've tried. Though note lately rarely bother except to see if things have changed.

Through it all have felt good to have answers that work for me! Does not make them correct. But if they work for others then I can gain confidence in them that way too.

For me my ideas are used daily now as I work hard to understand my world, and new possibilities.

Which is definitely needed as yeah, do need to make money, some way. And I think good thing is people support that at least. Where to me with SO much new that came at us so fast, it's no surprise can be stumbling around trying to figure that one out. Still wonder often at the people who seemed to get it quickly. How?

Public can watch major corporations still struggling on the daily to SURVIVE.

For so many of us, so many questions raised with so much change that came so quickly.

But am glad of path have taken. I'd rather know as best I can. And think have figured much out.

Where no longer feel cheated about anything. And am no longer worrying about how I share, except to share well. And no longer am anxious about my social media numbers.

Though am looking in places at being more entertaining to get bigger numbers, but that's hard!

Knowing the theory does not change the effort needed for certain things. Just makes it more clear what is needed.

James Harris

Thursday, March 16, 2017

When objective rules

The web is a connection engine really, facilitating rapid distribution of information on a global basis with minimal or even no cost, like for this blog I don't have to pay a fee. That has been a boon to our world though fights over distribution have been costly, with some desperate to hold on to streams of revenue consumers no longer wish to fill with THEIR money.

And objectively facing how information distribution changes our world is very helpful, and has been great for me! As I've found myself struggling often with how I feel about things or my preconceived notion of how things should be versus the objective reality of what can see from data like web analytics.

Objective rules though.

As years go by and find ways to check that web analytics data in other ways where work at it, realize it is hard data, is third party so not something I can influence anyway like Google isn't going to make up things for me, and there have to be reasons behind it.

One emotion though was easy for me for a LONG time, disbelief. That could let me just go back to whatever I was doing and didn't seem to work too badly as for a lot of years I was looking for that ONE thing that could break through, instead of figuring out what things had worked already.

Lately have focused better with a simple phrase I tell myself: objective measures

Telling myself to focus on objective measures and to that will also add: objective rules

Accept the hard data, wherever it leads. The truth is more important than my feelings.

Is weird though. If I just go with the hard data it is easier in many ways. Luckily have accepted to some extent all along, but also part of me would stay skeptical.

Kept looking for that one thing that would give certainty.

Finally accepting that hard objective data from third party sources is the thing.

And need to keep reminding myself to be very thankful too! To never forget that there are people out there who have made the difference, and without their interest, who knows? Luckily didn't have to find out.

Figuring out best how those abstract numbers represent people and groups of people, where I get a low estimate, has been a hurdle for me, where lots has been because of preconceived notions. In the past would prefer to blame slowly advancing technology of web analytics. Guess it's not slowly advancing. I'm slowly advancing, in ways.

Regardless am getting there. For those reading who have been reading through the years, yeah you've meant a lot to me, even though so often am guessing or just imagining who you are.

Is a cool thing. Our world is so much so often on that edge of discovery now. Nice to find a place there myself and have people along for the fun.

James Harris

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Chasing inspiration from challenge

Talking more openly on several things has helped me a lot, really in facing objectively, and trying to figure out more. And occurs to me should give more context to help curious people make sense of things that can seem odd I would think, like my continuing global reach.

Why exactly could one person draw so much attention from so much of the world, so consistently for so long?

So do explain much of what I figure is why, in what follows but want to emphasize, to me is just a cool story. Which keeps getting more interesting. Of course is also my story. And I like it.

To me for a long time it was about math, but more recently I got data that challenged that view which was kind of a relief. And about the math will explain a bit more that one thing I did years ago, was notice a way to write a mathematical argument, which is correct by established rules, which another mathematical argument can prove is incorrect. And I wrote a paper and worked at getting it published until that happened. So at that point I had made history. To me it was really cool and I prepared myself for global attention and there was to be follow-up papers I presumed, with help from mathematicians I was confident I would get.

Then math journal's chief editor tried deleting it out of electronic journal after publication. Journal managed one more edition then shutdown. University which had hosted journal scrubbed all mention of it from its websites. And I pondered that things weren't going way I thought.

Still was a neat trick. Probably will be only person in human history to do it dramatic that way, because of the problem I found. So to me? Was an opportunity I could not pass up! And problem is STILL there by the way. Means in mathematics someone could write something that passes ALL the checks as correct in place now, which is actually wrong. Will be handled properly someday, I'm sure.

And it's JUST information regardless.

That wasn't the only time was challenged by an unexpected response, as back in 1996 had a paper rejected as too simple by a math journal and I didn't push it back then. Well I was only 26, and there I found a simple way to solve a problem that was around 2000 years old, and in fact even Sir Isaac Newton had a crack at it. But supposedly it got solved recently in a complex computer aided proof so complex I'm not sure they've finished checking it (I think they have not wanting to web search to be sure). To me? Easier to just figure, well I can't see anything wrong with my idea but why worry about it? If I'm right it's not like answer will change.

And decided to challenge myself with such things to test myself with the simple idea: if I'm right, what else can I do?

Rather than focus on convincing others, became intrigued with convincing myself not with thoughts, but with accomplishments, in the real world. But how to know? Would figure it out.

To me had this unique opportunity to consider myself abstractly and ask myself what I would do if could have access to someone who could do such things? And that makes for an excellent adventure.

Eventually got tired of mathematicians sitting on things with the silent treatment as did other things, and wandered off into other areas. And also begin to study how they were succeeding! Like that way I found to produce a seemingly correct math paper which is wrong? That is a BIG DEAL. Will admit have monitored mathematicians slightly to see if they dared recently claim a big proof in certain areas where I know it would allow a fake result to look correct. Will not say if it has been exploited before as that gets into harder areas.

But you can see how easy it is under current world systems to hold me in check if I'm the ONE person noting such things. For instance reporters go to the experts, and I'm NOT a mathematician. I just happen to have some mathematical discoveries.

But of course if others can just check and see then that would keep attention draw in place. And my results ARE easy to check by people with mathematical training. But most people don't have that training or even like math. So you can see yeah is easy to hold the status quo, if others who know are silent.

My estimates are low-ball ones for global attention on purpose.

Chasing inspiration became fun for me as I gained the opportunity to endlessly challenge myself with the freedom to go wherever my interests took me, with a feeling there was a point to it bigger than myself.

Guess people all over the world do notice in some way. I've grown used to knowing there will be that interest. And why wouldn't there be?

So yeah, I defined mathematical proof in a functional way because I needed to check my mathematical arguments without being able to just have mathematicians say good or not. And came up with a functional definition of science because was frustrated at how people were talking climate science. And defined entertainment to help me explain follower counts on social media.

Studying much I've learned far more than especially if back in 1996 had faced global recognition and headlines around the world about the inexplicable thing. Or even back in 2003, when a crushing weight of attention could have been there with a world pondering the meaning of a massive flaw with established mathematical ideas, which I should add just needed what I see as a little tweak. Um yeah did come up with a fix for the problem. So fun but too esoteric to explain here.

No way would miss that opportunity either. Worked hard at it too. Figuring out the fix. Seems like a lifetime ago now. But really was about different ways of looking at things more than the years.

Now far older at 47, and with far less energy with which to chase, am rather happy with how things have worked for me at least. Challenge was inspiring, and I would not give up the knowledge I have now.

And I wonder how could I have found it, any other way.

Oh yeah, so being more transparent about it all. Through the years have tried many ways to explain. And now will admit am less concerned with what might work to convince. It does feel good to just talk it.

Will admit though, would be nice to resolve it. Still amazes me, especially certain things. Study it as I might, and with SO many answers still puzzles remain.

And can see is such a wild story can be hard to process let alone discuss, and I lived through those things. Had a lot of fun too along the way should add. Sure at times was really stressed or felt tested, but to me was an opportunity.

Where would answering the challenges take me? Still curious.

James Harris