Be professional tell myself

Got lucky in so many ways where discuss much, as talked my backstory quite a bit more recently where used this blog primarily. And one word meant a lot for me, which is, unsettled. Where am glad had another word, professionalism, to ponder where solid ground could be found.

There is something about what like to call the stranger economy where you can go get wonderful things, as long as you have the money and behave somewhat yourself. Like few places want you walking in naked for anything, even if you're holding a wad of cash. And where can you get away with being rude? Or other things not to do could list? (Of course some places you are quite welcome nude.) We have to follow some rules, as humans, if we are to get things usually, from our fellow humans.

And being professional is very telling. But what is it really?

Easier to talk what it is not. Like actually had a vague plan in mind for my first interview with a major news organization, which was actually able to implement. That was because happened as a karaoke singer which have brought up before. And I was just one of several, for a fluff piece for the San Francisco Chronicle which ended up published literally on the last page.

But whoosh! That was the impact for me for a few days in the city, which is another subject. But what was fun was I knew by then I was global. But not in a way apparently that registers even now much with established press.

Have seized on one easily shared fact for one thing I have, which is a software tool, which I use which is for Java developers. With downloads from over 150 countries in its lifetime, I can focus on that as proof global.

My personal creation where I wrote every bit of it. Was all my decision to put it up and keep it up. And I still control my code completely, though also is open source which means that is not suppressive in any meaningful way. Others could build from if they wished.

So I would ask myself, to move from surreal to real: how many people can put up something entirely their own which can gather any kind of attention from over 150 countries? That one would stump my ability to try to rationalize away as maybe nothing important. Then though that other thing would gain greater force--unsettled. Not much else made sense as forced myself to focus objective.

But got fun out of it, with a very unprofessional interview for my first interview with a major news organization as San Francisco Chronicle qualifies. Had been drinking before the reporter informed he would be interviewing me and others, but hey, is a karaoke bar, of course! Got to drinking more.

Directed him around to other singers till he got to me last, and I cursed every other word. He just smiled benignly at me. Have told this story before but guess love it so much, so like to repeat it.

Of course no curse words would make it into what made it into the paper but I was happier that way anyway. Not like I would want that published, you know?

Was a flight from my ideas really. Even the silly of it, was an escape. And have talked that subject more as well. My ideas are always there though. They challenge me relentlessly. I work hard to find ways to feel more settled.

Was just the thrill of being able to do that wild interview when knew it would not matter, for once. My aim now of course for any other interviews is to be a consummate professional is the phrase. Like I should write that down, maybe even to make certain is clear even to myself. Ok I tell myself. Ok.

There are just rules we need to follow as humans beings if we wish to get along well with our fellow human beings. Writing things down helps me, really it does.

Do aim so much to be, civilized.

Talking about things now where am so glad were SO many years ago, can feel like distant subjects. Am lucky there too. Things barely had time to consider in the past finally feel make sense to me now.

Where so much finally does feel, settled.


James Harris

With primary objectives achieved, now what?

Was good to finally talk so much of the backstory for why I do things. Which goes all the way back to when I was 18, and had a dream, which felt like an impossible dream. And then finally when was 25 began what readily admitted seemed like a Quixotic quest, until was doable.

And now am done. So now what?

There is that part of you that wishes to explain...there is that part of me that wishes to explain further. But no point rehashing so much already discussed in prior posts. And then there is that question of how do I know am done? Because I am. Objectives achieved. World changed...time to move on.

Setting up the next set of goals though, should be more personal. With global attention now, yeah am still pondering that much, while will admit mainly wish to not let it control me.

LOTS done to make that very difficult. Like got my own personal political party. Is mine, primarily to help me navigate global politics without getting pulled into anything.

From a baseline of very little money, wondering where will make money, to pondering how I managed to get certain things done there is that sense that vacation would be nice.

Maybe...will ponder. Nah. Just gotta figure out my next goals. Set some short timeline ones. Yup.

Now then, if your first things were to change the world for the better, what should you do next?

Um, self? Am asking you, ok? Just posting like that for rhetorical reasons. So um, can you please let me in on the next thing?

Talking to myself? Usually works out ok. Really.

Well at least that's what I like to tell myself.


James Harris

Benefits of discovery versus pay

For so long thought of myself as working at discovery which is lots of fun. Where naturally at first was also working a traditional job for income. But kind of missed on that transition needed as became global, as reporting by others was not there that I noticed. Where have to hedge.

Like my blogs have an attention reality as reported by various web measures, which show yeah, there had to be a communicating about, and of, my ideas by others all over the world. So much mystery for me there though, with most of that still hidden. Am not sure why.

But regardless was focused on traditional sources! And also focused on the establishment for recognized authority! Which was not a mistake. Web is so new really. So was more focused on well established arenas and following their rules.

Which was the way to go. How else to know certain things? Now am more interested in our emerging ways.

Is remarkable how global one can be with information precious as to who and why--as to that attention your ideas can bring. But also it is gratifying and I think more so, as I look with more and more suspicion upon reporting where money rules.

If people are paid to lie, how much lying might they do? If they can get away with it? Being able myself to personally probe into reality have been disconcerted when find, there is none of substance.

Yet there must hedge especially as is very difficult. And love being a fan, so is not right to talk too much about things that actually puzzle me much.

Also was brought up a certain way and in essence being forced to work for one's self to a large extent seems like a conceit to me, as if looking for that great thing with an excuse.

Regardless am accepting more of my attention reality which means can be more fun, I think. Discovery at best gave me answers to things where had SO many questions, with interests in so many places. And that does include money. With discovery found out, what is money? How do people actually make money?

But also, very importantly: What is success? How do we know?

And money and success can be very much unrelated actually.

With a global readership have global reach, which means global information flows to me, constantly.

YOUR interest rules much, whether you realize it or not. As in helps mark out much as audiences help create a certain web reality, as that meaning of, to rule fascinates me now, as is how you get a ruler. A physical ruler to measure, is ruled as in laying out parallel lines. To rule, literally means to mark out parallel lines.

Our interest as human beings more and more marks out the zones of our best information, and web authority helps us find. And how YOU choose to spend your attention? Can help you, me and others find ever better things, in so many ways.

Highly recommend if you can: Rule your own interests best you can my friend, whomever you are around the world. As you mark out your reality with your interests, we all can get to better content.

And will work harder now to discover ways to gain appropriate pay for my best efforts, with a greater appreciation for much better understood. Discovery helped me massively.

Our need to understand as human beings intrigues me often: Do you know why?

What makes you learn?

Our particular individual needs to understand what does define us, am sure.


James Harris

Curiosity and mystery

Found myself challenged by my own writing asserting a lapse in human curiosity in our times, but then found myself thinking that curiosity is driven by want. Curiosity is about that urge to know that can push into unknown territory where there can be danger.

The less we have an urge to pursue mystery maybe is a hallmark of a species where for many their success or failure with their society is with known paths.

The web of course has disrupted much, and maybe highlights what happens for some humans when that certain knowledge no longer applies for their current reality.

Is curiosity that can push you to go into that dark room where monsters may lurk.

The truths that are available for the discoverers will then be about that quest, where the outcome is not certain.

So I feel like my assessment is correct: modern humans tend to be less curious than our predecessors.

Possibly is simply an assessment of the power of modern civilization which have cheered much as talk about science and its predictive certainty.

We are less likely to believe that an answer lies behind a hidden door than in figuring out what modern tools or behaviors are needed. Which more than likely is the correct position! The success of many cultures with modern science and technology is daily demonstrated.

And for me is a comfort, as well as the means for communications like this one.

Then the dwindling of human curiosity is less of a concern, but is worth noting, for those who DO live different. Some of us are still the discoverers, who brave the unknown, and can wonder why.

Why do we seek truth? Maybe that is a mystery I will not resolve completely, but then again, to me, that reads like a challenge.


James Harris

Some mystery with world reaction

My first major result was in 1996, where I ended up with a route to denial and seized with gusto. Could debate with myself endlessly whether was correct or not, but chose to move on, which was the correct decision. And in 1999 was making myself do karaoke, which was fun. But was preparing myself for lots that did not happen.

And when had yet another major math discovery found my previous paths to denial were removed, so learned new ways to escape.

The world did react in August 2002 and has routinely reacted to things I have discovered, which to me is weird, and much of it was mysterious. Where my blogs have worked through lots, or I should write have worked through much with writing on my blogs but feels the other way.

Some may notice on social media will routinely address the world as is easier for me.

Our species is apparently aware on some higher level of what is going on, and is protecting itself against certain things but in ways that puzzle me. So yes, there are some humans who thought to separate themselves into a higher class. They seized a huge amount of power in major governments around the world and especially in the US. And they knew about climate change, but my assessment is, were more obsessed with creating a neo-feudal reality where YOU would bow before them.

And they failed.

Their systems are crumbling now. Vast manipulations primarily relying on American entertainment industry to convince you that only money should matter. So you would worship or be compelled to worship the wealthiest members of society--even if simply born into wealth.

Even when you knew better, or were told truths that should matter more.

And in the US, they had begun to groom their children for political power, where many Americans already were just accepting it. They had even practiced torture--for those Americans who might resist, and so many Americans so calmly just watched them.

And was amusing to simply watch them react to a celebrity president, in power now, and watch if they cared if he maybe, just might actually destroy the world. A signal to them that they had lost control but greater powers were amused enough to make that ironically known.

Where is disappointing really how accepting so many people are of it all.

Is like our species has already lost so much of its curiosity.

That reality lessens the value of our species in some ways, but maybe is more important for our bigger purpose, I comfort myself with that notion.

We no longer are needed so much by our reality for discovery, clearly. So fewer people care to know. And people like me are now even more rare than before. Discoverers think different.

Especially in my country so many people clearly simply wish to be entertained. So few of them care to know--truth. Fictions try to rule their lives, and they happily comply, living out meaningless existences, only to leave the planet eventually with what achieved?

Maybe they at least leave children who maybe someday will learn how to work to be greater, and pursue meaning in their lives.

The world does not care though as has bigger plans. But most people do not even want to know what is being decided for their fate, and the fate of their children and grandchildren.

Ok.

Well at least they will not be bowing before oligarchs in the US who put themselves up as a neo-royalty. Even though some of you still try, to bow, before them. We watch you too.

Who are we? We are the people who are aware, in a world that is aware as well, with so much playing out for a future that is on its way, like it or not.

You will be ruled, but by what?

Will best knowledge available rule your behavior? Where your free will means really you rule yourself? We are defined, by what we DO.

Or will you be ruled by others carefully feeding you information so you are a tool for their wants? Maybe even if they are artificial intelligences?

Most humans on our planet do not even seem to care to know. But how can they? How can you? Know?

Maybe is better that way even though I think our world will be vastly improved by authorities emerging with full power now.

What you know WILL matter for how you live. And if you choose ignorance, you will find your life may be ok, anyway, by the forces that then choose better for you.

For those who choose knowledge for the good of our species, I cheer you. Your destiny is one to be earned.

On our planet now there are billions of humans, who make up a world that knows more collectively than ever before, and maybe has less and less concern with what we each want.

Knowledge though, is a power in our time unlike before when truths can rip through the world with fury, or salve the wounds, and help all of us to better.

How will you choose?

Your world will know. Web will tell.


James Harris